b e t r a y a l {solangelo}

chapter XIV

hey guys! sorry i posted this late.  i had to go shopping with my sister yesterday, and plus i've been working on a new fierrochase story. i'm busy at this moment, therefore my writing will be shit because i was rushed. i don't even have time to edit this, so i'll publish this today and edit later.
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6/26/18  6:41am
will pov
i woke up just as the sun was about to rise. being an apollo kid, i always do that.

i blinked and rubbed my eyes. hold up, this isn't my cabin. i turned around and practically jumped out of my skin when i saw a mop of raven hair right next to me.

oh, right. i fell asleep with nico in his cabin. i hastily climbed out of bed, careful not to wake nico who was laying beside me, and went to the bathroom.

i looked in the mirror at myself. my face was still slightly bruised, but you couldn't really tell from afar.

as the cold air wrapped around my bare legs, i opened up a drawer looking for toothpaste.

i opened one and it had nothing inside. second drawer, deodorant. third, bloodied razor blade. fourth- wait.

(minor trigger warning)

i grabbed the blade out of the drawer and saw it covered in dried blood. i already knew nico cut recently, but just seeing this made me sick.

i cleaned it off then threw it out the window, not wanting nico to use that ever again.

i searched his bathroom, looking for anything else related to that.

i picked up a picture that was resting beside the wall, next to the sink. it was a picture of nico and his sister, bianca.

turning over the picture, i saw three papers taped behind it i opened one up and read it.

i miss you so much, bianca. it's only been a
week and i miss you. i hate percy because
he broke my promise. i bet you're in elysium
playing mythomagic with ghosts. don't forget
me. i love you. -your brother, nico.

gods. that was 4 years ago. i couldn't imagine nico going through that type of pain of losing bianca at 10 years old.

i unfolded the second letter and read it as well.

hi. it's been a year since you were taken out
of this world. i miss you more than words
can explain. i can't even live without you.
hopefully you are with mama, having a good
life, unlike me. i've been miserable. now that
you are gone, i don't know what to do. i've
run away from camp, i can't be there
anymore. i can't be near percy. he makes me
feel weird, but i hate him still. i don't know
what i'll do now. i love you, bianca. -nico

dam. that was deep. i moved on to the third letter.

hey. it's been two and a half years. i came back to camp, although i don't know why. at least i get the cabin to myself, right? i can't believe i almost forgot to say that you were a child of
hades. that's cool right? anyways, i feel like
i don't belong. nobody likes me, i'm just that
creepy, emo, death kid everyone hates. i
wish you were here right now to comfort me
and tell me everything would be okay. i wish i was in your arms and we talked and talked.
i can't be in this world anymore, bianca. i can't take it anymore. that's why i'm going to die. i know you would approve of this, but i need to do it. i'll never forget you. this will be the last note i will ever write again, if everything goes to plan. i love you. i'll see you in the underworld. -nico

a tear dropped on the note, causing the ink to smear. i knew that nico tried to kill himself by taking too many pills, but this note told me something he didn't tell me. he did it because of bianca.

i was going put it back, but then i heard a voice behind me.

"morning, sunshine. you woke me up. what are you doing?" nico asked from behind me.

i quickly put the notes behind my back and backed away from him. "nothing," i said while wiping the tear away with the back of my hand.

nico scowled and tore the papers out of my hand.

he looked back up at me, outraged. "where did you find these?" he asked in a threatening tone.

"you can't just be invading my privacy, solace! i hid these for a reason, and you think it's okay to just read them!?"

i didn't want this to end the way it did last time. he got mad, i got mad, we didn't talk, i cheated, blah blah blah.

"i'm sorry, nico. i didn't mean to cause you any harm, i was just curious. and you told me everything already that the notes said."

nico scowled at me, then looked back at the notes. he read them with incredible speed, and his face softened. his lower lip trembled and he chuckled. why would he laugh in this situation?

"i was so dumb and innocent," he said. after a pause he continued, "well, as you can tell, i attempted suicide but failed. i guess it's time to write another note."

he opened up a cabinet and pulled out a sheet of paper and a pen. he began to scribble some words down. once he was done writing, he handed it to me to read.

hi again. i tried to kill myself, but failed. you
can probably tell because i'm not with you.
i never should have tried. i'm finally content
with my life now. i have a few friends, not to
mention a boyfriend, and i'm as happy as
ever. though, one of my closest friends died,
but i'm coming to terms with it. i'll see you
later when the time is right. i love you. -nico

i smiled and nodded. "that's much better than the past notes."

nico nodded as well, then folded the notes neatly and put them back where i found them.
"i don't know why i wrote those."

i shrugged. "maybe you just wanted somewhere to express your feelings."

"yeah, maybe. now enough of this sad, sappy stuff. i'm going back to sleep. it's way too early to feel any emotion."

i rolled my eyes at that last comment. "yeah, okay. i'll just be all alone, feeling lonely, maybe snoop around some more," i said, wanting for him to give in and stay up.

"oh well. goodnight." and with that, he flopped on the bed and got under the bedsheets.

i sighed and got into bed with him, not wanting to be alone for 5 more hours. "why are you like this?"

"because it's who i am."

"right." i brushed his soft, black hair away from his face, and kissed him on his forehead.

"goodnight, death boy."