balconies ➸ n.g

05

i left the school still sad.

i left dina jane.

she was the only one

i could think about.

i lay on my hammock,

not bothering about the homework

quite yet.

i heard sobs.

it was dina.

the fact that she was

crying because of

me made me want to leave

this place forever.

safe heavens.

you don't care about her anymore,

i repeated to myself.

hell yes, i still did;

despite i told myself

so many times i

didn't.

i climbed over our tree,

stumbled into her balcony.

"dina? are you alright?"

i asked the sad girl

laying on the ground,

as if she were collapsed.

"i'm fine."

she said sobbing.

i knelt down to hug her,

she flinched.

"i'm here now."

"i never said i wanted you here."

"please excuse me,

i'm such a dumbass.

i should not have let you down."

"tell me why. just why."

"i...was feeling a bit down."

"alright,

i guess you're telling me the truth."

no, i'm not.

if you only knew what

gilinsky did to me,

you'd break up with him.

and i don't want that,

because he makes

you happy.

it hurts,

but your happiness

is all i really want,

that's what love is about

----

i love you, probably as much as matt... thou shalt be honoured

& btw the book cover is about this chapter, when nash is comforting dina bc she is crying

-nat