Battle

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WARNING: SENSITIVE MEDIA INCLUDED. THIS PAGE DOES NOT SUPPORT ANY KIND OF HARM TO ANY INDIVIDUAL. SUIDICE,SELF HARM AND DEPRESSION THEME INCLUDED!

~Battle~

"Blinking my eyes, I clear my sight
Once again, I lose the battle,I lose my mind"

She falls on her knees. Tears running down her cheeks. Her hands run down her waves furiously.
She throws punches in the air. Trying to calm the broken beast inside of her.

'There's no end' she thinks.
Bringing her palm towards her face, she covers her mouth to hide her cries. She sobs endlessly.
And it seemed like the tears will never stop.

She stands up with all her strength and walks towards the mirror of bathroom.
She looks at her reflection, all she could see was a failure.
'I can not do this' she concludes.

Hundreds of thoughts running through her mind. She was broken to the point where she could not think the broken pieces were visible.

They were gone.

She wanted relief.
Little did she know death is not a relief.
It's just end of cycle. Not pain.

She picks up the rusted blade.
Her hands shaking yet so used of her actions.
She holds up her wrists. Ready to yet again cause herself pain.

Tears never stop. Blurring her vision.
She throws the blade across the room and yells out loud.

She always feels so low. So sad. So helpless.

She wraps her arms around herself.
Trying to contain herself.
But she could not.

She wishes If she was better.
She just wanted to be loved.

She cries and cries!
Her eyes swollen red.
She carries herself to her bed.
She cries and cries untill there are no tears left.

She falls into deep slumber.
Once again crying to sleep.
Once again feeling broken.
Once again wishing she never wakes up.

The heaven watches her. Watches her fall apart and get herself together.

Everything will be better.
Everything will be fine.
Everything will fall in place.

Pain will end.

After all

'This too shall pass'




A/n
Ppl go through hell everyday, they make it out alive. So will you.
God loves everyone and He loves u too.

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