DEH watching Dear Evan Hansen

If I could tell her

I decided to make it all bold because it makes it easier. Luv y'all ~J

I want to die

He thought you were awesome
He thought I was awesome? My brother?
Definitely!
How?

"What the hell Hansen! Flirting with my sister and using my death as an excuse!" Guess who yelled that...

Well, he said
There's nothing like your smile
Sort of subtle and perfect and real

Evan pretended he was happy. He wasn't that was his second crush oh my Granny Smith he was dying on the inside. Not in the good way. Connor was dead and he honestly didn't really like Zoe. He must have been desperate

He said
You never knew how wonderful
That smile could make someone feel
And he knew
Whenever you get bored
You scribble stars on the cuffs of your jeans
And he noticed
That you still fill out the quizzes
That they put in those teen magazines

"Even I don't know that last one and I'm her BROTHER " Jared whispered "that is kinda creepy dude" and Evan sighed

But he kept it all inside his head
What he saw he left unsaid
And though he wanted to
He couldn't talk to you
He couldn't find the way
But he would always say
If I could tell her
Tell her everything I see
If I could tell her

How she's everything to me
But we're a million worlds apart
And I don't know how I would even start
If I could tell her
If I could tell her

Did he say anything else?

"I don't know Hansen what else do you know about her?"Grudged Connor

About you?
Never mind, I don't really care anyways
No, no, no just, no, no he said, he said so many things
I'm just, I'm trying to remember the best ones so, um
He thought
You looked really pretty, er

"Subtle" Jared winked. Evan sighed. It must have been his nerves

It looked pretty cool when you put indigo streaks in your hair

He did?

"I really did Zo" and she playfully pushed her brother

And he wondered how you learned to dance
Like all the rest of the world isn't there
But he kept it all inside his head
What he saw he left unsaid
If I could tell her
Tell her everything I see
If I could tell her
How she's everything to me
But we're a million worlds apart
And I don't know how I would even start
If I could tell her
If I could tell her

But what do you do when there's this great divide?
He just seemed so far away

Connor sobbed a little on the inside because what Evan said was true. Even if he was flirting with his sister

And what do you do when the distance is too wide?
It's like I don't know anything
And how do you say
I love you
I love you
I love you
I love you
But we're a million worlds apart
And I don't know how I would even start
If I could tell her
If I could

Connor just yelled "NOPE NOPE NOPE NOPE NOPE NOPE" and clung to protect his sister. Evan just sighed and swapped seats with Jared.

The rest of the seniors did see how Connor had feelings and he cared for her. They thought about being nicer. They hoped to be.

WHO ARE YOU PEOPLE AND WHY ARE YOU READING THIS!!! ~J