Poison Ivy

He kept telling me that what is essential is invisible yet, I disbelieved him.
I mean, find such a thing!
and it's invisible ?!
He must have gone haywire.
Well, I mean, how can you just earn it?
You have to see it some how, at least that's what mother said.
Yet, I was wrong, real wrong.
Looks like Ivy gone haywire and not Theo,
Well I can't turn the time back , not without a potion.
A potion is what got me into this mess of a curse.

I was a silly to think some potion from a witch Hazel somebody that I don't even know a single bit would find what I'm looking for, and funny what I was looking for was right under my nose,
My whole 13 years of life.
But I took that liquid and drank it, what a fool I was.
It flowed down my throat, fizzing and bubbling up like a volcano but upside down in to my heart, it was seeping in.
Lovely ness inside out of me.
But a trap it was,
No one loved me back.
For that I dreaded day and night, a long time it was.
Sitting in a dark corner looking at my friend, He warned me, Theo, he's the one cure that I'll never get.
Instead I get love all over me but none back.
My life feels like a dagger being stabbed into my heart every time I cry.

How have I messed up this badly but he told and I never listened.

My life has Poison Ivy written all over it

You've gone haywire Ivy.