❤Poetry❤

Bruised & Battered Love

I gave you the key to my heart...
I gave you the password to my body...
I gave everything but that still wasn't enough..
It was never...enough

You tell me I'm nothing so much that I believe it
"No one will ever love you like me" you say it enough times til it repeats on its own in my head

You say I'm difficult and like the screw up you always call me... I kept trying harder

I learned to depend on him
And his anger
His mother says "he gets it from his father"
His sister says "Stop doing things to make him mad"
So I odey

I believed him every time he tells me he loves me
Thinking the love we share will change him
Would make him better

You picked out every flaw and I continued to change
You molded me into your perfect girl
But that still wasn't enough

Blow after blow after blow
"I'm sorry" you say "ill never do it again"...like the words "I'm sorry" will be the bandaids to cover my wounds

Like saying "I'll never do it again" will some how soften the next blow
Because theres always a next blow
Then we talk like nothing ever happened

I fell in so deep
I know its not right
I know that it's toxic
I just couldn't give up

Cause what if this is love...
What if this is the only love I'll ever get...But if it's love...why does it hurt so bad
Why does it make it so hard for me to still want to breathe

I gave myself nothing but to you I gave so much
Then instead of breaking me physically...you break my heart
And once again you say "I'm sorry...this will be a fresh start"

And like the perfect girl you molded me into...I'd wait..wait for you to ruin me even more...I wanna say something...speak up..scream out...
But I can't...I'm hesitant

And you catch my hesitantion and hold onto it to..to hold me down where you want me...I stay...

Yes...I stay...
I'm flawed yes I know
But you understand...that I need him
In some sick twisted reality...we depend upon each other

Weather the called "true love" is there or not...
This Bruised and Battered Love is all I have...
 
                        By: Mya J❤