a/n: this was originally meant to be an interlude for my story, a supercut of us , but it also works as a standalone so i decided to post it separately.
the context is that Camila is working through her feelings for Lauren while making music for CC2, so there's a lyric associated with every scene.
there's a playlist of the songs whose lyrics are referenced/adapted in the order they appear, if you like reading while listening to music:
(copy+paste from wattpad is a pain, so if you wanna bother, my spotify profile is mjfeelz and you can find everything in my public playlists)
there's a few lines in Spanish, but you can find the translations in the comments <3
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The stereotypical heart shape was meant to be two hearts fused together." - Anonymous
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2016.
have no fear / for when i'm alone / i'll be better off than i was before
It's December 19th 2016 and Camila is alone on her bed, tears streaming down her face. She knew it was coming, she knew what was coming, but she still somehow wasn't prepared for how it would hit her, a punch breaking through her chest to squeeze her heart and burn her lungs.
Fifth Harmony's first statement had been so dry and she had hers ready to go for the sake of whatever circus their management had set up, even though she'd waited several hours until she posted it.
Now there's a second Fifth Harmony statement and she hadn't been expecting that. Each line brings with it a new set of tears and she isn't sure there's enough water in her body for all the pain she's carrying inside.
Everything is ugly. So, so ugly, and unnecessarily cruel too, to all the fans caught blindsided and who held on to the band in its original formation for many different reasons.
She doesn't know where it all went wrong. She doesn't like thinking about how much of it might be her responsibility – something to be blamed on her dreams, her ambition, her desire for freedom. On her broken heart and her brutal reactions to it.
It doesn't matter.
The leap of faith has been taken and a new life is about to begin.
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i tried to say that i was sorry to you / but you don't think i speak honestly / that's okay 'cause i can move on now
Camila passes past Dinah and Normani hugging in the hallway and rushes to their dressing room, eager to get rid of her stage outfit and just... leave. Lucy is there – of course she is – but Camila only offers a small smile to the girl's awkward wave.
