Mackenzie Paul

Chapter 48

I remember them...

The Boys

"Hey Logey I'm headed out for a- run h-hi."

"What'd you say sis?"

"I was just um- just... I'm sorry, quick question, why are there 5 insanely cute guys in our living room?"

"This is Why Don't We."

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Ethan and Gray

"This is Ethan and Grayson Dolan."

"Sup." they say in unison.

"Ethan."

"Grayson."

"Jake you didn't tell us your sister was this beautiful."

"Back off Grayson."

~~~

Ivan and Emilio

"Bueno, fue un placer conocerlos chicos."
Well, it was nice meeting you guys.

"Tú también, Macknezie, ¿verdad?"
You too, Mackenzie, right?

"Si, pero todos me llaman Kenzi."
Yea, but everyone calls me Kenzi

"Did you understand what she said?"

"So cute..."

~~~

Tessa and Erika...

"Hi! It's nice to finally meet Logan and Jake's little sister."

"Jake's been talking about you for months."

"Pfft! Whaaaa?! I wasn't that excited to see you."

"Admit it Jakey you love me."

"Yea. . . I do."

~~~

I remember falling for Jack

"It's just us now... What do you want to do now?" My eyes landed on his lips. "Whatcha thinking about in that beautiful head of yours."

"Nothing, just how I want to... mess with your hair." "And how I'm really sleepy."

"Well then go to sleep. We'll be out here."

"Jack?"

"Yea?"

"Can you come with me?"

"But what about Logan?"

"He can be mad at me. I won't let him take it out on you."

But then realizing he was just a friend

"What's wrong?"

"This just doesn't feel right. . ."

"Oh."

"Sorry. I just don't feel a connection between us."

~~~

My birthday

"Kiss me."

"W-What?"

"Kiss Me."

"Like right now?"

"Right now."

~~~

"You're just trying to get with every fucking guy you meet!"

"That's not true."

"Really because apparently you kissed Jonah, slept in a bed with Jack, and who knows what you were doing in Ohio! Bet you were just whoring around with every single guy there!" His face ran pale. "Kenzi I-"

"You know what, save it. Guess I know how you really feel."

"Ken-"

"Don't ever talk to me again. Better yet, just forget I ever came into your life."

~~~ 

"You made your decision. . . and he made his..."

~~~

I remember being with Ivan

"Just say yes adn kiss already!"

"Yes. I will be your girlfriend."

Then leaving him...

"How long was that going on?!"

"About a month. . . But I swear Mackenzie, I love you and only you. Please forgive me."

"Oh fuck off. Go make out with you little slut girlfriend. See if I give a damn."

~~~

Then Grayson...

"So. . . what does this mean?"

"For us? I don't know. What do you want it to mean?"

"I want it to mean that I can do this whenever I want." "Kenzi will you be my girlfriend?"

He was my biggest mistake, but I already knew that.

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Then Daniel. Of all people that hurt me, I never thought Daniel would be on that list. I never wanted to remember Daniel. I wanted to know the Daniel I met when I was in a coma. I wanted that Daniel. Not the Daniel who purposely broke my heart. Who always seemed to say the wrong things or do the wrong things at the wrong time. Part of me wishes that I never remembered the Daniel before that night. But the other half does...

I wanted all my memories with Daniel back. I wanted to remember how much fun I had with him. I wanted our memories back. I didn't want him to have all our memories trapped in his head. I knew they were tearing him apart inside. Maybe Daniel didn't want me to know. Maybe he wanted to start over. Wipe his slate clean. 

Deep down that's what I wanted too.

"Because I love you Daniel! I Fucking Love You! And I wish I didn't because you are not the guy I thought you were."