Cut: An Underdog's Story

Chapter Four: (Not So) True Friends

Meagan's POV

I woke up to a dark and unfamiliar room. I realized that i was laying down in a bed, the sheets were rough and scratchy to my soft fingertips. I tried to sit up but there were wires everywhere attached to my body. The obnoxious beeping coming from a machine beside me sped up slightly showing my fear of the unknown room. A light suddenly flicked on to reveal a woman in all white with a name tag that read 'Nurse Vicki'. Oh, i was in the hospital.

"Good, you're awake; how do you feel?" She asked sweetly. "Well besides the vicious pounding in my head and my whole body aching, i feel pretty swell." I spoke sarcastically. "Always takes the pain like a champ." She replied with the same amount of sarcasm.

"I would say nice to see you again, but i wish the circumstances were better." She spoke again. "Nothing i can't take." I smiled lightly at her and she grimaced back. "Who did this to you?" She asked. "Same person as always." I rasped, relaxing into the much-to-familiar feel of a hospital bed. She shook her head disapprovingly.

"You're lucky that girl and those two boys found you, you wouldn't of survived much longer if they hadn't." She spoke carefully, i shrugged as much as i could with all the wires attached to me. "Meagan, don't think like that, those people that saved you seemed to really care about you, you've seemed to pick up some pretty nice friends." She scolded.

"Oh yea? Then where are they now?" I asked, slightly angry. "Visiting hours are over Meagan, they've came every day and spent the whole afternoon with you." "Everyday?" I croaked. "How long have i been out?"

"Three days."

My eyes widened slightly.

"One boy even asked a couple times to stay with you over night, but as i said; we have visiting hours and we're not supposed to make any exceptions." She explained, sitting on the edge of my bed. Vicki had been my nurse ever since i was little, she knew about my life so me and her were good friends, but our meetings were limited to my all-to-often hospital visits.

"Who?" I asked, leaning forward some, interested as to who would want to stay with me over night. "I don't know his name, but of the two boys he was shorter and looked younger, more around your age." I furrowed my eyebrows at the thought who would- wait a second. I know exactly who would want to stay with me over night, or at least i have a pretty good idea.

"Stromberg." I muttered.

"Did you say something?" Vicki asked me. "Yea, could i have some pain medicine?" I fibbed, and she walked away to get me some. She came back with a new bag for my IV and hooked it in, as soon as she did i could immediately feel the calming effects it had on my body, an invisible medicine induced string tugged me towards sleep, and i let it as everything faded to blackness.

The next time i woke it was definitely day time, because i woke to Breanna shuffling around in my room. "Bree?" I asked, my throat dry and my voice coming out as a strangled mewl. "Meagan?!?" Breanna whirled around and rushed to my bedside. "What time is it?" I asked, clearing my throat as best i could. "12:00pm, i left school for lunch to come check up on you, i told the others to stay behind." She smiled.

We were both silent for a minute, and i could've cut through the tension in the air with a knife.

No, actually a chainsaw would be required to do that.

We both had the same nagging questions at the back of our minds but neither of us had the guts to say it. Breanna finally broke the icy silence.

"So are we still cool or....." She trailed off, looking at me expectantly. "Well i don't know breanna, you tell me. You left me alone in my greatest time of need to go run off with your family somewhere when you could've stayed, leaving me all alone to deal with the crap that is my life, and you see where thats landed me." The venom that had built up inside of me at her over the year or so came spilling out all at once in that one sentence. She looked down guiltily, suddenly very interested with the tiled hospital floor.

"Im sorry, i dont know what i was thinking-" "you weren't thinking." I cut her off, she looked up to lock eyes with me. "Either that or you just didn't care anymore." I whispered, tearing my now watery gaze away from hers, looking to the far right wall.

"Meagan, i cared! Okay i really cared!! It was just me being my stupid a*s self and not thinking about what that would mean for you. I saw a new start with my family somewhere nice and i jumped on it okay?! I wasn't thinking about how that would leave you here miserable and by yourself!! I wasn't thinking and i didn't mean for this to happen and i know it's all my fault and im so sorry its just-" her voice choked off and i could tel she was having trouble finishing her thoughts. Her voice suddenly dropped down to a whisper, like her next sentence was classified material. "I didn't know that when i left you that your mom would too."I squeezed my eyes shut tightly as tears started to fall from them slowly, making hot wet trails down my face. She seriously had to say that now? This was not helping my already fragile state.

Vicki chose this time to step in and check up on me. "Meagan you can go-" she stopped when she saw me crying and Breanna in front of me. "Ma'm i'm going to have to ask you to step out, you're upsetting the patient." She said harshly. " I can see that." Breanna spit through her teeth, but she did as told and walked away slowly. Vicki quickly came up to me and hugged me. "See how good of friends i have." I scoffed, making fun of her earlier assumptions. "But she was here, and i heard her, she cares Meagan, she just doesn't know how to mend your past." Vicki whispered, rubbing small circles on my back as i sobbed into her shoulder.

It was silent for a few minutes as i cried out all my frustration from the past few days and the fear that they would come back for me. Vicki just stayed embracing me as i cried for the first time in about two years.

"I miss her." I finally choked out pitifully. "I do to Meagan, i'm pretty sure everyone does." Vicki replied softly.

I squeezed my eyes even tighter as the tears started coming less and less. "I really don't want to have to do this but-" "i can go home now can't i?" I guessed, my voice still shaky, but firm enough to be heard. "Yes, i'm sorry." Vicki said ruefully. "It's okay." I said, pulling away from her so she could unhook my tubes and wires.

Once she has accomplished this she handed me my records of hospital visits and then bid me goodbye and i slowly walked to the bathroom to change my clothes, moving slowly just making sure i didn't re-hurt myself. After i was done i walked slowly down the hallway, trying not to look at the familiar pictures on the walls, reminding me of my childhood visits here with my mom for checkups. I cringed when i realized i had forgotten the sound of her voice already. Another tear slipped down my cheek and i wiped it away quickly before i could fully break apart.

As i walked towards the front doors i saw a family reuniting with what looked like a cancer-ridden bald headed little girl. Taking her home, i guess. The parents were laughing happily as the little girl hugged at their legs, scrambling to be back in her parents arms. I sighed. I had no one waiting for me outside those doors, no one to hug me and ask if i was 'ok', because if i did have someone like that, i would be able to tell someone for the first time that i'm truly not ok. Im falling apart slowly, from the inside out. A couple more slip ups and i would be done for.

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A/N: Heyyy guys, what do you think? Over 200 readers already!!?? It's my most popular story!! :-) thanks guys. (But is it pathetic the most readers i have on a story is 200???)

So.... Breanna and Meagan's fight though.....

You also figured out that isn't the first time Meagan's ever been in a hospital.....

I had to put the cancer thing in there, i hate cancer. Anyways, vote, comment, share my story, follow, whatever you can!! Or, if you don't want to then just click off and wait for my next update. As you can see i'm going to start posting a chapter every 10 days or so.

- Stay Lovely,

Meagan