THE FORGOTTEN SMILE

20.

The feeling when you don't even know what the fuck you're feeling

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P.O.V Maddie

I gasped as the episode stopped after a very dramatic cliffhanger.

It was Tuesday night and I was finally home alone. Nina and Marc were still away on their business trip and Dylan was to a party. Of course after he asked me if it was okay like a billion times but I wanted to be alone. He had always been here and even though I loved his company being alone was not something to complain about.

'I hate myself' I mumbled to myself when I started the next episode. Is was midnight and I needed to sleep if I wanted to at least be awake at first period but of course I don't care.

'Madison' I suddenly heard very loud.

WHO THE FUCK WAS THAT

'Mads' the same voice yelled again, Dylan.

I stood up from the couch and walked towards the door where I found Dylan. Very drunk.

'hello pretty lady' he smirked when he saw me

'Dylan, how much did you drink' I scoff, I had never seen him drunk.

'just one drink' he walked, no stumbles to me and I catch him. 'or two, or three' he laughs

'oh god your breath' I put my hand over my nose and he laughs

'you like it' he breaths out in my face

'no I don't' I push him away

'sorry pretty lady, how can I make it up to you' he pulls a sad face

'maybe you should go to bed' I point up to his room

'no' he suddenly yells very loud and he sits on the stairs

'Dylan please don't yell, we have neighbors' I asked him and I sat next to him

'I'm sorry but I just cant stop. Your prettiness makes me scream' I scoffed at what he said

'Dylan you really should sleep' I stood up and he started fake crying

'oh my god' I scoffed again and I grabbed his hand

'no' he yelled again when I pulled him up

'yes' I said back and I looked into his blurry eyes.

'you have magical eyes do you know that' he tilted his head and I scoffed

'yeah your drunk' I turned him around hand pushed him up the stairs

'no really pretty lady, your eyes are very beautiful. I saw that the first time I looked into them. It was like magical' he mumbled and I just ignored it. Even though I wanted it to be real so bad.

'Dylan can you put these on' I gave him a t shirt and pajama pants I found in his closet.

'no' he threw them away

'oh you little shit' I mumble under my breath and I sighted

'can you at least take of your shoes' I push him a little so that he sits on his bed

'sure' he bends down to untie his shoed

'you know, Maddie, at the party there was this girl and she started to make out with me'

Ouch.

'but then I pushed her away'

Why did I feel betrayed. He can kiss whoever he wants, it's not like I like him. Right?

'sure, go to sleep mister' I stand up from his bed and he lays down

'wait' he grabs my hand when I want to walk away

'stay' he pulls my hand and I fall on his bed

'Dylan' I say on a high tone

'what, you slept with me once' that sounded wrong when he said it like that. We like slept together but like in the we spooned kind of way, not in the we had sex kind of way.

'once' I scoff and I get up from his bed again

'don't leave' he says dramatically

'go to sleep drama queen' I kneel down next to his head and he looks into my eyes

'can I have a kiss' I shake my head

'nope' I want to stand up but he grabs my face and gives me a kiss on my cheek

'I love you pretty lady' I stand up and put my hand my cheek. It was still tingling.

Why did he do that?

'go to sleep Dylan' I stood in the door opening and not long after he fell asleep.

'what are you doing to me Dylan' I mumbled to myself because I honestly didn't know.

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I walked out of my room. I was tired and really hated my alarm clock for waking me up.

I walked down stairs and found Dylan there with his head in his hands.

'hang over' I asked him, yes I was judging. Who parties on Tuesday nights?

'yup' I he sighted deep and I scoffed

'did you have water' I asked and I filled 2 glasses.

'no' I gave him the water

'don't drink it up' I said when he brought the glass to his mouth

'why' he asked

'well because maybe this will help' I gave him and aspirin and he smiled

'thank you'

'will you go to school' I asked when I grabbed some money out of the jar that Nina made for lunch money.

'no' I raised my eyebrows

'good student' I said sarcastically and he scoffed

'I will be taking you though, the walk from here is to far' he drank up the whole glass

'sure'

'Dylan' I asked when we were in the car

'yes'

'do you remember anything from last night' secretly I was hoping he would. I don't know why I mean he didn't do anything that I would want him to remember.

'not really'

I knotted. Somewhere I was disappointed. But that feeling disappeared when I realized this wasn't the way to school.

'Dylan this isn't the way to school' I said and I liked at Dylan

'no it isn't' he smirked.

What?