New Light

New Light

Last year I can't barely recognize
My dreams, my goals
I set it aside for some unworthy choices
That made me unstoppable
To be nothing.
I made some reasons to feel better
For the bad decisions that I made without having a thought.

I can't see some light
To lighten up my life.
I can't guarantee a star
For I am a fool who traded the best for a dark.
The reality made me start nothing
I got confused and afraid.
I am setting something that I feared the most.
Afraid of the light I stayed at my darkest moments.

Why it bothers me?
I don't even know what to answer
I made a bad decisions when I have a lot of options.
I really wanted this light; the light that I dreamed of my whole life.
I am out of nowhere and I don't see the reality with some changes.
Why I am very stupid to myself, I am ashamed of this.

This year I wanted to set bigger dreams
I don't have to be living with fear.
It is like now or never, best or worst.
I am having this  new light
The light that lighten up my mind
Shouting don't be afraid to start a beginning at any time
Be afraid to lost something that you never tried to do with your best light.

By Rissa Desaliza
01/02/2018

Photo credits to Ria Len Desaliza