Depression is deep purple,
a color deeper than blue.
Purple is the color of shame,
and dried blood.
Purple is the color of incense in a place
where no one knows my name,
where the chanting and rituals
no longer comfort me.
Purple is the color of
the shadows where I hide.
Blue is for saddness...
...indigo, for pain;
a blue with blood...
a saddness that bleeds.
Hope, my hub, is Spring green, and...
...happiness (is there such a thing)
is the color of the forest,
of the grass after rain.
Excited, I am yellow --
bright sunshine, open eyes,
far horizons, clear skies,
new growth in Spring (forsythia first),
and anything...is...possible!
Irritable is orange...cooled-down red,
yellowed-over pink,
a color that is only good
for a piece of fruit or an old cat
in the afternoon sun.
Everyone knows that anger is red.
What else could it be for me?
Bloodshed red, but...
rage is scarlet, a deeper hue...
white-hot, furnace-new,
an anger that cleanses instead of drains.
Brown is the color of coffee
and tea and chocolate,
of the soil in my little window garden.
Brown is beautiful.
Grey for a non-feeling, a Twilight Zone
where no colors exist at all,
a two-dimensional, flattened-out world
where I don't even feel myself,
let alone anyone else.
I lived there once, in a grey world,
and I would be any color
but grey...
except for one...
and that one...
...is black.
Black is for fear.
Black lines my days like a paper border
on death's door, like prison bars,
like a gash in the earth to hell
(where the monsters dwell),
like a night without stars
or a nightmare that doesn't end
when waking.
Black is the eyes
of the stalker in the shadows,
the one who feasts on my soul
because I let him.
Black is all there is
when all the colors run together
and I cannot feel anything
but fear.
Fear is black.
The only thing I have to fear is black.
~ * ~ * ~
Every day is a rainbow,
a riot, of color.
I don't want black in my rainbow
I don't want grey.
Fear and emptiness go away
Don't come again another day
Mama's got some bills to pay
and some life to live before I die.
Go away black fear.
Go away nothing grey.
Go away...
