Broken (EDITING IN PROGRESS;)

Chapter 12

Alexander's POV

I woke up the next morning with a light throbbing in my head. I frowned as I pushed myself up. I had had a dream in which Isabelle was running away and I was chasing her but couldn't move. 

I glanced around the room and realized I was still in the hospital, I sighed. Damn I wish I chased after her.

No shit Sherlock, Arden replied.

Oh be quiet! You - 

All of a sudden Dad came in the room with a frown on his face but it became a small smile when he saw me. I glanced away not wanting to remember all the crying I had done in his arms or else I would begin all over again. 

Ugh.

I took a deep breath and looked back at him, " Any news Dad?", I asked.

"Well , son. I hadn't mentioned it earlier because you were already under so much stress and pain but... Isabelle's mom ran after Isabelle. The good news is  that we found her-", he began but I cut him off.

"Isabelle?!", I said my eyes widening with hope, even though I knew the answer.

"No, son. Isabelle's mom", my  Dad said, " She was found naked crying on the floor near the borderline of Florida and Georgia. We managed to bring her back but she put up a fight. She is not speaking to anyone but thankfully is eating and drinking."

I sighed knowing how much pain Isabelle's mom must be in right now. I could relate.

"What about Isabelle Dad?", I asked him looking him straight in the eye.

Dad sat down pinching the bridge of his nose and looking down. He finally looked back up at me.

"Son, I have set out five search parties with twenty men each. So far no news of her yet. Son, that could only mean one thing", he said.

"What Dad?", I said my lower lip beginning to wobble.

Please don't cry. Please don't cry, I told myself.

"She drank a mixture. That mixture took away her scent...Which means she doesn't want to be found, son", my Dad looked at me with sympathy.

I looked away my hands beginning to clench. I saw the tray of food placed beside my table. I grabbed it and threw it against the wall. It left a clear dent and the food scattered everywhere. 

"Son, calm down", my Dad said putting a reassuring hand on my shoulder. 

I shrugged it off.

I could feel myself beginning to loose it. I got up from my bed ripping off anything which was attached to my skin . I then went over to the chairs and threw them against the wall. 

I could feel my chest heaving up and down. I went to the vase of flowers placed beside my bed and threw it against the wall too.

I could feel my Dad watching but he didn't stop me. I grabbed two brooms sitting in the corner and snapped them in half.

I took deep breaths in and out. Then I knew I couldn't take it anymore. 

I collapsed to the floor crying. I knew I was being a softie but I had hurt and lost my soul mate.

My shoulders began to shake as I cried. 

I felt footsteps coming towards me and  Dad pulled me into a hug . I heard the door creak open and saw my mom enter through my blurry tears.

I heard her gasp as she looked around the room . Then she looked on the floor and saw me. She ran over and hugged me tightly.

So there I was..on the floor crying like a little baby with my parents hugging me tightly.

I knew I couldn't do this anymore. Isabelle obviously wasn't intending on coming back and there was no way in hell we would find her. I couldn't also be this..this emotional wreck anymore. There was only one thing left to do.

I didn't want to do it but I had to. I'm sorry Isabelle.

I stopped crying and swallowed my spit. My parents both stopped hugging me and looked at me in concern. ..Like I was a fragile piece of glass about to break into a million pieces. 

I smiled. I was acting like one of those heartbroken girls on TV after they found out the guy was cheating on them.

My parents knitted their eyes in confusion probably wondering how I was crying then all of a sudden smiling.

I looked at their loving faces and said,

" Mom. Dad. I want to turn off my emotions".

"Alex, please no sweetheart", my Mom said tears building up in her eyes as she gripped my arm.

"I have to Mom. If I don't I'll just be a burden to you and Dad", I said gently removing her hand.

"Son...Are you sure about this?", my father said, raising one eyebrow up sternly but I could see his eyes full of tears.

"Yes. I'm a burden as it is. You have so many responsibilities you have to fulfill, Dad. Plus If I am going to be the next Alpha in line.. then I better set my priorities and not mope around", I said looking at my hands , trying my best not to cry.

I saw my Mom begin to cry in my Dad's shoulder. I saw my Dad leaning into her trying not to cry himself. He knew that If I turned off my emotions I would be a stone-cold-hearted ass hole but, at least an asshole who stayed on task and focused on getting things done.

I saw my mom look at me and whisper , " I love you so much honey", before I nodded and closed my eyes.

From movies and shows  everyone assumes only vampires can turn off their emotions. But so can werewolves.

I took a deep breath.

I closed my eyes and began to remember all the memories up till that moment.

First, they began as sweet ones with me as a child playing and having fun with clear happiness on my face . Then, came the ones in my teenage years ; me growing through phases. Then, began the ones I dreaded the most; the one's with Isabelle.

I had to think about them or else I couldn't turn off my emotions but it hurt so much. With every memory of how I hurt her physically and verbally I felt as if someone was slashing my heart. I felt tears run down my face but I ignored them. 

Then  finally I remembered up to this moment, the love I had received from my parents.

I imagined a light switch and imagined myself clicking off. I closed my eyes and willed that to happen . I felt a sudden sharp pain in my stomach then... 

I felt empty.

I looked up at my parents.

They stared back at me .

I smirked, got up , and left the room.

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Author's Note:

Hello everyone,

I hope you are enjoying the story! I would really appreciate it if you would vote, comment, and fan. But don't worry because, I'm not forcing you.. or am I?! *LAUGHS EVILY AND POINTS WATERGUN AT YOUR HEAD*

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