His Light

Sober

I am in love with the song above. Get ready for chills and tears.

Sober by Demi 

Taytum's POV :

Who can watch Joey Freaking Tribbiani and Phoebe Buffay and stay grim?

As the screen of my TV went dark the answer to such question presented itself. Never have I ever watched Joey and Phoebe without grinning but here is my reflection looking dull and sad. I tried to re-watch  How I Met Your Mother but even Robin and Barney stopped being legendary. I also had no freaking will to watch Harry Potter...Thanks to whom ? Thanks to MR.Monster who kissed the life out of me. You heard it right he left me lifeless and burdened. What will I tell Bri once they are back together? What will I do? Why do I feel the stabs of a heartbreak when I never dated that heartless guy? 

No knowing what to do with myself, I just turned on some music. I am feeling sad and the only song that popped in mind is "Sober" by Demetria Devonne Lovato. When angered I tend to call people by their full names so do not be surprised. Sober , the song, had me at the word sorry. I could imagine Demetria breaking into tears as images of her relapse into alcohol played in her mind. Few friends stepped away from her as soon as she broke and she was left to fight not just for sobriety but for the relations that she has. My heart ached as I played the song again and again because I myself was not SOBER anymore. I am not drunk on alcohol but on sorrows. My mind is not clear or calm. I am a mess. My feelings are a mess. My heart is too. 

Breaking finally into tears and sobs, I wished for Bri to be near and just hug me like always did. I considered her to be my older sister. She helped me through my breakup with Henry. Now, I cannot tell her how her supposed to be husband kissed me senseless. I can still feel the fire from that kiss and the burns from Owen's words. A mistake , he said and a mistake I was described.

Picking up my phone, I called for the only human being that can hear me without judgement or fuss. I invited him over and hearing my sobs he promised to be here in no time. Keeping his promise, Gavin stood in my doorway after ten minutes and he hugged me to comfort.

"What happened?" He hushed playing with my hair as we sat on my bed 

"A mistake " I replied and once again my fat continuous tears fell wetting my cheeks 

"Sugar...I need some kind of clarification." Gavin begged wiping my tears away

"I...I...I kissed...Ow..OWen...No...No... he kissed... me... No....we kissed... each other...Not we I mean , Owen and I." I tried to explain between sobs

"And?" Gavin questioned yet again 

"He called it a mistake and is going to look for Briana, his supposed to be wife." I finally came clean and Gavin's gaze hardened 

"He is a stupid son of *****. He is not desservant of your tears. I should have pointed his limits since he couldn't keep away from you. I will go show him what a mistake is." Gavin roared in anger

"Please don't...I just needed to out my feelings because my heart feels so heavy and broken. It even hurts to breathe." I begged capturing Gavin's hand and I just got a small angered nod as an answer

"I already told you that that guy is trouble." Gavin reminded taking a seat next to me again.

"I know. I was just under some kind of influence. I was not sober to his real goals. Now I feel stupid." I informed again

"You are not." Gavin assured sweetly 

"You are not tell anyone and you are not going to face Owen, okay?" I demanded holding my pinkie up for him to promise

"I won't tell the facing part though..." Gavin spoke darkly 

"Gavin" I pleaded giving him my best puppy-eyes

"But..." He tried to argue

"Gavin..." I begged again hugging the life out of him

"Okay, okay fine." he promised making me smile a little.

Did I ever tell you how much I love Gavin? If I never did then just know that I love him a lot.

Owen's Pov:

Driving aimlessly for ten minutes, I started up to three fights with over stupid drivers: they were either too slow or driving madly. Images from my make out with Taytum played in my mind repeatedly and I couldn't but feel torn about them: Every part of me was excited at our proximity. My heart never danced as wildly. I was under such a trance that sobriety and good judgement left my body. Then, it hit me: I am kissing my supposed to be cousin-in-law. I am kissing Briana's best friend when I want my Briana back. I am kissing Taytum when she dating Drew. She and I are cheating on both of our perfect others. Taytum's perfect half is Drew such idea irked me to no end. I just could not accept that a sweet introverted girl like her would end up with a player as Drew.

What if he breaks her heart?

What if he makes her cry?

What if he does make her cry like I did? I still can hear her little faint sobs as I closed the door of her house after me. I did not know what force controlled me but a make out session with Taytum is all I wanted when she defended Drew. Holding her between my hands, biting on her lower lip delicately, hearing her moan as my hands explored her curves and tongue dived into a battle with hers made me feel on could nine. It all felt right till I remembered the cause of my visit "Briana". I  reluctantly pushed away from Taytum ignoring how luring her heavy breaths sounded and how her chest rose so erotically. 

"Mistake" that word stung me as it left my lips but I had to draw some line between us. Maybe, now Taytum will go back to hating me. Maybe she will distance herself again and I would have the capacity to look for Briana without any kind of distraction. 

"Get my private jet ready. I am fly to Godalming in less than an hour" I ordered my assistant 

I have to find Briana. I have to set the world back in order. I have to bring her back, fix whatever had broke between us and just continue with my life plan of marrying the perfect woman for me.