The One

Chapter 11: Closure

Deanna

"Stay there. 'Wag ka na lumapit. We will talk pero dito na lang." sabi ko sa isang Pauline Gaston na papalapit sa akin

Umupo ako sa kama ko at umupo naman siya sa kama ni ate Kat. Nakatingin lang ako sa baba while waiting for her to say something.

"I'm sorry, Deanna." she started

"Continue. Makikinig lang ako sa whatever you want to say."

"I'm sorry kasi naging cold ako sa'yo. I'm sorry because I didn't treat you the way you deserve to be treated. I'm sorry I ch-cheated on you."

"Why? Hindi ba kita napasaya? Hindi ba ako enough?" I've been wanting to ask her these things dati pa

"It's not like that. Yes, nawalan tayo ng time para sa isa't isa, "Babe time" and "Adventure time" disappeared. I got insecure and natakot ako. You're getting better and more famous each day. I admit may slight na inggit kasi naiwan ako sa baba. Pero you deserve naman lahat ng na-achieve mo. Then, I felt like you're slowly being out of my league. Like am I even worthy enough of being your girl when there are a lot more girls out there who are definitely better than me? Dapat hindi ako nag-overthink. Dapat naging proud na lang ako sa lahat ng narating mo. Dapat naging mas understanding ako, pero hindi ko nagawa lahat 'yon. Instead, naghanap ako ng iba. I'm s-sorry, Deanna. I'm so sorry." she said while crying

"I'm sorry if you thought I left you and fulfilled our dreams alone. I'm sorry if nawala yung "babe time" and "adventure time" natin. I'm sorry if I wasn't able to do my duties as your girlfriend." I looked at her with tears slowly rolling down my cheeks

"You're not supposed to say sorry, Deanns. Ako yung may kasalanan. Bakit ba hanggang ngayon ganiyan ka pa rin kabait?"

"Even if you don't want to, magso-sorry pa rin ako. Naniniwala ako na in every conflict, both sides lagi ang may fault kaya I also want to say sorry." I answered her and forced myself to smile

"Alam mo ba, Deanns? Kaya ka ba nakipag-break sa akin because you knew?" she asked

"I followed you in a bar one time. Someone also saw you in Batangas with Kobe." I answered, feeling a hint of pain in my chest as I remember the moment I saw her kissing someone else

"Why didn't you tell them? You let them treat you like you don't exist. All you had to do to make them stop treating you that way was to tell them the truth. Why didn't you do it?"

"Because I love you. That's the same reason why I broke up with you. I had seen the way you looked at him. I had seen how you held and kissed him. I didn't break up with you because I found out that you were cheating on me. I broke up with you because I love you, and I wanted you to be happy." I said while looking straight into her eyes– the pair of warm brown eyes that I have greatly missed

"I'm sorry. I-I ran out of words to say."

"It's okay. Hearing you say sorry once is enough for me. I just wanted you to admit what you did. But, why aren't you two together? You love him, don't you?"

It feels great– hearing her say sorry and being able to tell her the things I've been longing to say. I feel a lot better, now.

"I do. I love him, but I didn't want to be with him until I've received forgiveness from you. I wanted us to have a proper closure before I enter into a new relationship."

"Are you like asking for my blessing? Okay, beloved daughter. I give you my blessing. You may live happily, ever after with Kobe." I joked, trying to lighten the atmosphere a bit

"Nakapagbiro ka pa talaga. But seriously, Deanna, I'm sorry. I hope someday you can forgive me."

"Already forgiven. Siguro there will be times na I will still question my worth and feel pain pero I know slowly, things will change. I know I will get better. Don't get me wrong, ha? I don't want "us" to get back together. I love you pero it's in a different way na. It's just that this wound needs a little more time to heal. Basta be happy with him. I'll be okay." I said and walked towards her