Silence hangs thick in the air. White noise in my ear. Fading light, dark edges, then out. Anxiety taking over. Body giving up. No...energy...left.
He's gone. Forever gone. I'm lost in this world of darkness. Nothing can ever turn this around. Everything is wrong. The opposite of what I want. The opposite of what I need
"I'm fine" "I promise" "I feel great"
Lies. All lies. I look fine, but I'm slowly collapsing. And no one notices.
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i'm on top today. i feel fabulous. i'm falling so fast. i'm worthless. useless. a waste of space. i'm happy. i guess. kinda. not really. i'm fine. truly. i lied. i'm never fine
i've never come close to being
"fine" why do people say it's ok
when you cry? it's obviously not
i mean why would i be crying if i was ok? what makes you think the tears in my eyes aren't your doing?
what makes you think they're about a little problem? my scars aren't just skin deep
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I'm not sure what I want in this,
But I know it's right,
It's meant to be that we are together,
And I'm so grateful for you,
I'm so pleased to have you in my life,
As soon as I knew what you had answered,
My life was ten times better,
I was screaming inside my head,
The whole day leading up to it was crazy,
But I'm glad I did,
Because here we are,
One month on,
I'm sorry for what's gone wrong,
I'm glad that there wasn't much that did go wrong,
I think you're an amazing person,
I'm glad I have your support,
Happy one month xx
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the grass so green
the sky so blue
if i know one thing
it's that i love you
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i see the ground
i see the sky
i see that you're
a pretty special guy
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