Married to SAMCRO's Prince

Chapter 15

As I laid in bed with Jackson I felt worried about Abel. What if he doesn't survive? What if I lose him? What if Jackson leaves me because of it? All these what if's keep going through my head.

" Stop over thinking babe, Abel will make it, he's half me and half you. He is a strong little guy. Don't worry, and I am not going to leave you ok." Jax said to me, funny after all these years that man can read me like a book.

" I am just worried that's all, I can not lose him, I can not lose you. You guy's are my everything. Your it for Jax, no other man could ever fill my heart, no other man can replace you." I said to him.
" Aphrodite look at me, I am not going anywhere, you are stuck with me til the day I die, your it for me too. When I see other women, they don't even compare to your beauty, I fell instantly in love with you and I fell hard. Abel is going to be just fine. Want to go see him?" Jax asked me and I shook my head yes.

So Jax got me a wheelchair and we went over to see our baby. When we got there Gemma, Clay, my dad and Happy were there. I smiled seeing them
" How is he?" I asked my dad
" Come look for yourself." He said

Jax took me over to his incubator and I gasped looking at him, so tiny with wires everywhere on him. I started to cry, my poor baby.

" Hey he's ok." Jax said to me
" He's so tiny. Ca- can I touch him?" I asked nervously Jax shook his head and said
" Yes, of course you can, he's your son." He bent down and kissed me.

So I reached in his incubator and ran my finger acrossed him, he moved and it scared me. I put my finger in his tiny hand and he instantly closed his hand and it warmed my heart

" See he knows it's mommy and he's telling you everything is going to be ok." Happy said, and I smiled. I knew he was a fighter and he was going to make it through this.
" Thanks Happy, I need to get out of my own head space and think positive." I said
" He is fine Princess." Happy said

They finally left, just leaving me and Jackson in his room.
" I'm sorry baby I wasn't home when this happened. I was too worried about the warehouse explosion." Jax said while rubbing my hand.
" Baby I am not mad at you, it was club business and I understand. I know that you guys have to figure shit out, don't ever think I was mad at you, or blame you for not being there." I said as I kissed his cheek

I eventually went back to my room, Jax had to leave and left Juice with me. I was just sitting there and thinking about everything in my life, and I had this huge smile on my face.

" What's got you smiling Dotie?" Juice asked
" Just thinking about my life, I would never want it to change. The people in it are my everything." I said with a smile

" You are one awesome chick and I am glad I get the pleasure to know you. You never treated me different and welcomed me with open arms. Well after I mistakenly thought you were a Croweater." He said with a chuckle.
" You were only protecting Jax and his Old Lady and I was thankful for that. You are my best friend Juice, your family and I love you." I told him

He just smiled at me and we sat there until I fell asleep. I was so exhausted, from worrying about Abel to worrying about the warehouse explosion. I was afraid ATF would be back and sniffing around again. We don't need that kind of shit on our doorstep again. I will be damned if my family got locked up again.

Abel was progressing nicely, he got his surgery. I spent every single minute with him, I talked to him, sang to him and read to him. Jackson as well talked to Abel and read to him, but refused to sing, he said he sounded like a dead cat. I laughed at him. All the guys would come and see Abel, they were in love with him, Happy was there the most, which surprised me, but he was secretly a softie.

" Hey Grumpy, how are you?" I asked him one day when I came to see Abel. I was discharged after a couple of days, but I was up there every single day.
" Good, just watching little man, he is so tiny. I know I seem heartless but I can't help but to think about what if I want to settle down and have kids? Looking at him, hell looking at you and Jackson, I want that." He told me, now Happy isn't the type of person to share his feelings but when it comes to me he tells me. I get that he wants to settle down and start a family, everyone deserves happiness even the Tacoma Killer

" It will happen, just find a woman who can handle your crazy, and settle down. Everyone deserves happiness Happy, even you. You are a very good man, any woman would be lucky to have you, you are fierce and loyal to a fault. She's out there, just have to go find her." I said as I kissed his cheek

" You are the only one I have told that too besides Ma, it's just hard to find someone who would understand this life, the things I do for this club. Who would want that?" He asked and I had a smile on my face the size of Texas.

There was one woman in particular that fit the bill, here name was Alexis and she hung around the clubhouse. She wasn't a Sweetbutt or a Croweater, she was the bartender and has on several occasions asked me about Happy. She really likes him and understands the life.

" Why are you smiling about Princess?" Happy asked me and I snapped out of my thoughts
" I know the perfect girl for you and she understands the life." I said
He looked at me with a confused look

" Who?" He asked
" Alexis the bartender at the clubhouse." I said and his whole face lite up like a kid on Christmas. I knew he had feelings for her too.