starving silently ( Draco Veela Fanfic )

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No this can't be happening, I can't be away from draco.
He's the only one that's treated me like a person.
I need to be with him, I don't want him to hate me.

"Draco what's going to happen now I don't want to be without you" I said my voice getting quieter as I grew more fearful of him leaving me

Draco took my hand and pulled me into his arms as he said" listen love I will never leave you, professor explained to me that we would have our own private chambers and Slytherin's have most of their classes with the griffindors anyway"

I felt my self calm down and let draco gently lead me into the great hall and sat me down at the griffindor table next to a beautiful girl with dark brown hair and stunning greenish blue eyes.

"Hi you must be that new weasley girl that's got Ron's knickers in a twist"

I was shocked for a moment that she was talking to me, she saw me come in with a Slytherin and obviously Ron has been telling people how horrible I am
"Ummmm yeah my name's Rachel "

"I'm Hayley" she replied whilst staring into my eyes and not giving a shit about what the head master was saying, and to be honest neither did I

"You know what I think me and u will be great friends, and you're obviously nothing like what Ron has been describing you."
She said while looking over to Ron with a scowl on her face

"Well I know what Ron says about me and its not true well most of it" the last part I said quietly almost as if I was talking to myself.

Finally the head master stopped talking and we could finally talk without having to whisper

Hayley turned towards the feast and loaded it onto her plate pilling food so high i was surprised it didn't touch the seemingly nonexistent ceiling

I just sat there awkwardly for a moment not being able to help my self to the food, it looked so good maybe since I've been so good recently I could have just a bit of pasta

Aren't you fat enough already, you just have to eat don't you, you have no control, you don't deserve to eat

I don't know what I was thinking, I can't ruin my progress.

"Ummm Rachel why is draco staring at you?"

I looked over at draco and sure enough draco was looking at me then to my empty plate silently asking why I wasn't eating.

I put my hand on my stomach and my other hand over my mouth to signal that I felt sick, although that isn't the case

Sometime I want to eat but I just can't
And other times I do eat, I allow myself to eat but I have to stay under my limit and it has to be foods that I've planned and only when I've planned to have them.

I just want to have control.