Forever and Always, that was the plan

(This is Derek to Stiles this time)

"Stiles you hyperactive active teen that drives me crazy, I can't believe you did this to me. I can't believe you went off and got yourself killed. Look, your not gonna get this but I have to get this off my chest. You made me want to kill you every time you spoke with that big mouth of yours, but I never did. It wasn't because of Scott or the sheriff, it was because, Stiles, I fell in love with that big mouth. You had to go on and die and leave me here. Stiles I miss you, and if anyone heard this I will deny everything. I know i was always an ass to you even till the end but Stiles I never meant it. I keep your bat, it's in my room, every time I look at it I think of you and how you never left home with out it. You left me with this group of teens that are only constant memories of you. I wear your red hoodie, it replaces my leather jacket. It smells like you, I miss you. I sneak in your window every night Hoping just once you'll spazz awake and yell at me, just one more time, please Stiles. I need you one more time"