I walked back to the bus, the Paris themed charm bracelet dangling from my wrist. The show was only in a few hours, so the boys were already in the venue when I arrived at the bus. Oakley lead me into the venue.
Oakley- Where were you?
Carson- Seeing Eli.
Oakley- Carson, you know were leaving Paris tonight. Eli lives here, you're never gonna see him again.
Carson- We're working on it.
Oakley- Working on it?
She turned in front of me.
Carson- What? *sighs*
She whispered.
Oakley- You're supposed to be with Zach, and you know you love him.
Carson- What the fuck, Oakley?
Oakley- You're supposed to be with Zach. Zach loves you, you love Zach. BOOM relationship.
Carson- You know I'm trying to get over him.
Oakley- Carson-
Carson- He is with Aria!
Oakley- Do you think he actually fucking loves her Carson?
Carson- Obviously! He is dating her!
Oakley- I don't know what the hell he is going through but he wants to be with you, and YOU know it.
Carson- How do I know it, Oakley?! He is with Aria, he never told me he loved me and wanted to be with me! He never said that. I waited for him, and got nothing in return. Then he ignores me, and doesn't talk to me the whole time i'm here?! I'm trying to get over a guy who has actually put me through HELL and back, and you want me too wait for him longer?! I cant keep waiting for a guy who doesn't love me, i'm losing myself because of him. I'm done.
I walked past Oakley seeing Zach in the doorway.
Carson- What the hell do you want?
Zach- S-Sorry.
Carson- Me too.
I walked through the door, scoffing. Why can't they just be happy for me? Jack looked at me as I walked backstage.
Jack- Carson, can we talk?
Carson- Really?! You're kidding right? You too?
Jack- Stop. I know your upset, but i'm being nice here. In fact i'm being more nice then your best friend right now. You're anger issues are getting out of hand.
Carson- Don't say that! I-
Jack- Carson you have to get you're head out of your ass. Sometimes I swear you're so selfish. Oakley is just trying to help you, and Zach just said sorry. I love you, you're my fucking sister. But, lately you haven't been acting yourself. Zach doesn't love Aria, and now he is dragging your friend on but all you care about is that she "stabbed you in the back". I want my sister back, because right now I miss her.
I stood there, fiddling with my fingers, as the words hit me like a ton of bricks. Jack and I were always super close, he was the one that was excited when he found out his parents were adopting a girl, and he was the one that always tried to protect me, whether it be me getting in trouble with my parents or boys at school.
Jack- L-Like you said, sometimes I feel like your losing yourself. When's the last time you painted a picture, or blasted Vance Joy in your ears? I haven't seen you touch a skateboard since you got here, but you're the first person to want to skate with me back home. You don't wear dad hats anymore, I haven't seen you wear that stupid bracelet that our aunt got you in Hawaii the whole time you've been here and you really love that bracelet. I know things that these guys don't know a lot about you, because you're changing. But I know you're still in there. Zach is ready, Zach loves you. No matter how many times you say he doesn't, you know he does.
He grabbed my hand, whispering.
Jack- And you know you love him. I know you love him. You've cried over him, you've ran away over him. You've been through so much I think, you think it's a cycle. Now Zach is finally ready to settle and you start hanging around with a European boy that you hooked up with once. So stop letting your anxiety, and your anger issues, and your panic attacks get in the way of what you love. Which is him.
He pointed to the brunette that was sitting on the familiar bench outside of the window. I looked at him.
Carson- ..... I'm s-sorry.
He hugged me tightly.
Jack- Go talk to him please. Aria is off meeting her friend before the show, you've got time.
He ran his hands through his hair, before getting up and walking away.
Carson- Jack?
He turned back around slowly, keeping the distance between us.
Carson- I love you. *smiles*
He smiled.
Jack- I love you too.
He left towards the stage, where the rest of the boys hung out before mic check. I looked out the window again, before getting up and walking out. Zach looked up at me, before looking back down at his feet. I sat down next to him, scooting away from him so he didn't feel uncomfortable.
Carson- I didn't mean to make you feel sorry, when I said all that it's just-
My breath hitched as he placed his hand on mine, before intertwining our fingers.
Carson- It's just lately I haven't been feeling myself.
He nodded, rubbing his thumb up and down my hand. I felt the blush creep up my cheeks, touching my face and feeling the sudden heat.
Carson- I don't know if you want to be with Aria or not, but there is one thing that I know is certain.... and that's that I know I want to be with you.
