The reason why [L.H]

Chapter 8) Broken promise

Luke had food with him, i didn't realize that until we were in my apartment. ''I love you, you're like the best person in the whole world'' I said as i took some chicken into my mouth ''Yeah i know, i'm pretty amazing'' He chuckled, as he looked down at his plate with food. ''But seriously, i need you to drink some water'' Luke said as he looked over at me ''Buut..'' I began, ''No buts Maya, please'' He said as he looked at me with a soft look in his eyes. 

''I've got a better idea'' I smiled, i took my plate and put it on my coffee table. We were sitting in my living room, as the television played in the background. ''Maya, what are you doing?'' Luke asked, as i got up ''Just wait'' I giggled as i walked away, i walked into the kitchen. Pulling open a cabinet, taking a flask of vodka out ''There you are'' I said as i got it. I walked back to Luke, who still sat on my couch, when i got there i tripped in the carpet.

Falling down onto Luke ''Oops'' I laughed ''God Maya, how much did you drink?'' Luke said as he let out a little laugh, i pushed myself up a bit. Then i realised how close we were, i could feel his hot breath against my lips. Luke brushed a piece of hair away from my face ''I should never have stopped talking to you'' He whispered ''Then why did you?'' I asked him, as i looked into his eyes. They matched my own, blue, except i could feel myself drown in them. ''I-I can't tell you..'' He said as he bit his lip, pulling away from me. ''What do you have there?'' He asked, changing the subject. ''Vodka'' I smiled at him ''Are you serious?'' He said

''Yes, and you're drinking with me'' I chuckled ''I really shouldn't'' He trailed off ''Oh come on, you've got the whole week off'' I said as i took a chug of the vodka ''Wow we're going hardcore, are we now'' Luke said as he let out a chuckle ''Get hardcore with me'' I said with a playful tone ''Maya.. Do you realise how dirty you made that sound..'' He said as he looked me deep in the eyes. ''Come on Lukey'' I pouted my lips at him ''Fine, but only for you.. And because i want to'' He said as he took the bottle from my hands, taking a chug of it ''Damn this is some strong stuff, what is in this'' He let out a cough.

So now we sat here, me drunk, and Luke on the way to drunk island with me. ''Okay so you need to answer me all honestly'' Luke said, as i laughed ''Fine, but only if you do the same then'' I chuckled ''Okay then..'' He trailed off ''Who where your first time?'' I asked, i was curious to know if it was someone i knew from high school. ''Wow starting with those questions.. Alright then, if you want me to be honest.. Then i can't remember'' He trailed off ''Are you serious, or did you forget cause you've slept with so many girls'' I said with a little chuckle, ''Please don't think i'm like that.. I think the only reason i don't remember her, was because i was thinking of someone else'' He admitted to me ''Seriously? Who were you thinking about then'' I said as i got curious ''I.. Um, i think it's my turn now'' Luke said as he obviously avoided my question.

''Who were your first kiss?'' He asked as he looked at me again, ''It was Michael'' I said truthfully. Right now i felt like i had nothing to hide, probably cause i'm drunk as fuck.. ''M-M-Michael?'' Luke said as he got pale ''Yeah, but i always thought it'd be you'' I chuckled as i took the bottle from the table, taking a sip. ''You did?'' Luke said as his cheeks got a little red ''Yes i did, and aw you're blushing'' I giggled, as i moved closer to poke his dimples, Luke had taken the bottle in his hand ''Maya please don't..'' He said, like he was embarrassed. ''I think it's cute'' I whispered as i leaned closer, i placed a hand on his lap so stabilized myself. But this caused Luke to drop the bottle ''Oh my god, i'm sorry'' He said as he realized he just spilled vodka on my shirt ''It's fine'' I chuckled, his reaction to me was way to funny.

My phone rang and i saw it was Gabriel ''Heeeey Barbie'' I giggled into the phone ''Barbie? Who the fuck you calling Barbie.. But secretly i love it'' Gabriel said in that diva tone he makes ''I just wanted to know if my drunk girl got home alright'' He said, as he talked i began to unbutton my now wet shirt. ''I'm with Lukey'' I said, but then Luke took my hand that was unbuttoning my shirt ''Oh you wanna do it?'' I asked him, as a hiccup came ''Honey what he doing to you?'' Gabriels voice sounded. Luke shook his head at me, while he was smiling to himself ''He got vodka on me, and i tried to get my shirt off.. I gotta go Gabriel, i have to get this off'' I chuckled as i hung up. ''Who is Gabriel?'' Luke asked with a cold tone.

I laughed at him ''Gabriel is my friend, my gay friend'' I laughed, ''Oh.. That's cool'' Luke said as he blushed a bit, someone's a little embarrassed.. ''Really 'That's cool''I quoted him ''I don't know what to say okay, don't make fun of me!'' He said ''What are you going to do about it then?'' I said with a playful tone ''Maya don't test me'' He said as his eyes darkened, i climbed over so i sat in his lap, just to tease him. ''Maya please..'' He said quietly, as he put his arms around me ''You know what.. I think i like your hair when it's long'' I said as i ran my fingers through his hair, then i looked down at his lips. He ran one hand down on my side, then he put his finger under my chin, tilting my head up.

''You have no idea..'' He whispered as he looked into my eyes ''No idea about what?'' I asked him quietly. I wanted him to kiss me, i wanted to feel his lips on mine ''I-I can't..'' he said as he made some distance between us. ''You can't what Luke'' I said with a little hurt in my voice. ''You don't understand..'' He began to talk ''Understand what? That you clearly still have a problem with me, after all these years.. What have i ever done to you'' I said as i felt tears beginning to press to get out, i was hurt.. I thought there was something.

I thought he felt it too.. I felt it when i saw him at that stupid event, this bubbly feeling inside me, i felt it all those years ago too.. But back then i got confused because of all that with Michael, and now it seemed as it was getting back again. Michael kissing me in the elevator, Luke coming here.. Were they just playing with me? Was i some kind of toy? I thought as i got up and walked over to the windows out to my balcony.

 ''I never had a problem with you'' Luke said as he walked up behind me ''Can you just go.. I don't want to be played with..'' I said quietly as i looked outside on all the twinkling lights. ''Maya please look at me'' He begged me, i turned around to look at him ''I never wanted to make you feel like i was playing with your feelings'' He said as he took my hand in his ''But what is it then..'' I asked him ''What's holding you back'' I continued to talk, i wanted to know why. ''You didn't just come here with dinner for nothing'' I said, looking at him ''I... I made a promise'' He whispered as he looked away, i took my hand and turned his face to look at mine. ''What promise?'' I asked him ''A promise that i can't keep..'' Luke whispered as he placed his lips on mine.

I put my hands around him, pulling him closer. Luke picked me up, walking over to one of the chairs at my dinner table, pulled it out and sat down. His lips was soft against mine, they moved perfectly in sync with each other. The kiss was passionate, full of meaning, and full of unspoken feelings. I could feel the butterflies in my stomach, it was like his lips was made to fit mine perfectly. I felt like i was floating on a pink cloud, nobody had ever kissed me this way. Or made me feel like this, if the world went under right now, in this moment it wouldn't matter. I wanted it to stay like this forever.

But we had to break the kiss eventually, the need for air was becoming more clear, as i was running out of breath. So i broke the kiss, i could feel the big smile i had on my lips ''I'm glad you broke that promise'' I whispered, as i took a breath ''Yeah.. Me too'' Luke smiled at me, i don't think i had ever seen him with such genuine smile. He caressed my cheek ''I have wanted to do that for a very long time'' He whispered as he put his forehead against mine ''And i have wanted you to do that for a long time'' I admitted, then our lips touched again. It was like new year's eve, there were fireworks exploding in my head, and i don't think i will ever get sick of this feeling.. It was like i got high, from kissing Luke, and this was the best trip i never wanted to have an end.

We broke the kiss yet again, both smiling like love struck idiots. But i didn't care, as long as he was here with me, it was like nothing could tear me apart. ''You have no idea how happy you make me'' Luke said, as he kissed my lips again. I felt him smile into the kiss, then breaking it again ''I never want to let go of this moment'' Luke whispered against my lips, it was like he was reading my thoughts. ''I never want to let you go'' I said as i looked at him. ''I'll never get enough of this'' He said as we both leaned in to let our lips touch, once more.