You Make Your Own Future (Mike Faist x Reader)

Season 2 ~ Part 7 ~ Grandé Finalè

Y/N POV

It had been two weeks since everything happened with Mike. It's so strange thinking that we're together now but, I'm really happy.

With my counselling going well and Mike also helping out, I was starting to peruse my dream. Anxiety would never be allowed to win! Is what I kept telling myself. However, it's really not as easy as that.

There were good days and bad days. I wasn't getting as many panic attacks as usual but I did have moments of panic. But with the calming methods my counsellor advised, I was settling them down much better.

You know how they say, 'Just picture everyone in the audience naked.' Yeah well that doesn't help. At least..not for me. It just makes me more anxious, and I guess my brain just eont process the fact that there's a full audience just sitting naked. It isn't realistic and it just adds the question of 'Why?.' So my brain just doesn't accept it, probably.
So, I try a different method. Pretend the audience love you. Adore you. Admire you...
The longer you pretend, eventually, it'll be true. Now obviously that isn't all I do. Calming techniques help and thinking happy thoughts but what really helps, is pushing yourself to do it. No matter how scared you are to go up there, no matter how fightened, you push yourself to do it. Because, then, once it's over, you'll feel so much better and maybe. Just maybe. Even feel like you can do it again.
This isn't just for going up on stage. Push yourself to do whatever you can, whatever you want to do with your life. You can not let it control you.

All my life, my anxiety controlled me. It changed my personality, closed me in and locked me up. At first, I thought it was Mike who was helping my anxiety, and of course if he didn't show up I might not have done all this but, it's through my own efforts. I accomplished this myself. Me.
And although I've still got a long way to go. I know I'll get there. I just know it!

"Y/N! Are you ready? This is your first proper audition today since that time before. Are you sure you'll be okay, don't force yourself." Mike expresses a worried look as he walks over to me.
"Don't worry!" I smile "Yes. I'm terrified. Yes. I just might die but hey, it's fine."
"That's not really reassuring me." He sighs. I giggle and pinch his cheek. "The audience love me."
Again, he lets out a sigh after hearing me say this then responds with "Y'know, that's a really narcissistic sayin' you made up there." He chuckles, only for a second before locking his eyes to mine.
"It works."
For a moment, I thought he was going to place a kiss on my lips, he brought his face in so close. But, instead, he embraced me. He held me so tightly I started to think he might just stick me to him. "I'm so proud of you." He said. His voice was firm but his body was shaking and his eyes beautifully dehydrating themselves. Beautifully.
"I'm proud of myself too. Remember, you told me that you make your own future? I'm glad you told me that because I truly believe that's what I'm doing and those words of yours, they made me believe I could do just that. And, I am." I push him away and kiss him on the forehead. I could see how red his face was, I didn't think it was that embarrassing but, I think it was mostly because he was crying. Or maybe... heh. God. I love him. I love him so much. "I love you, you're my future. I want you to be my future." Mike said what I was thinking outloud.
"Cringe."
"Yep."
"I love you too."
"You're not going to reply to the other bit?"
"Nope."

There's a quote from a book 'We do not remember days, we remember moments.' And this. This is definitely a moment that I'll remember. For eternity. Because...THE LOVE MIKE SHOWED ME BEFORE MY AUDITION GAVE ME THE ENERGY TO DO IT AND I GOT THE JOB! THAT'S THE POWER OF LOVE FOR YOU ALL! HAHAHA!

THE END

{THANK YOU ALL SO SO MUCH FOR READING AND FOR ALL THE SUPPORT! I AM IN TEARS RN HALP. But seriously. I had so much fun with this story but I thought it was time to end it. I'm sorry. I will be making another story but it won't be x reader. It'll be my own. Please read! I mean .. if you wanna T^T (please?) I hope you guys enjoyed this as much as I did, it really was great. I never expected so many people to read. Thank you all so much again. This was a great experience. Well then, goodbye for now!}