i dragged my wobbling body into the bathroom.
round two
a singly tear rolled down my cheek as i stepped one of my bony feet onto the cold tile.
i raised a shaky hand and opened the cabinet, my fate right in front of me.
i reached up and grabbed the container, opening it and setting the lid down.
i grabbed the alcohol that i set there a while ago, i had been planning this for a while since my last failed attempt.
i cried as i grabbed the razor, slicing it across my wrist once again.
i quickly poured the pills into my hand, and grabbed the bottle.
i tilted my head back, dumping the pills into my mouth, then chugged the alcohol.
i looked around as i thought about my friends, the ones who left me.
my parents who hated me,
and you.
as i fell onto the ground, i realized something.
no story ends well.
i laid there, the dead weight in my legs from the sleeping pills,
the dizziness from the alcohol,
and the blood pumping out of my wrists.
and then, then i finally forgave you.
i forgave you for the pain you caused me.
i forgive you.
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a quick note:
sorry i ruined the feeling of this chapter, i just want to let you know that suicide is not the only answer. i believe you can get through whatever you are going through, YOU DO NOT DESERVE THIS PAIN! I LOVE YOU!
This, too, shall pass.
and remember that.
YOU ARE READING
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