I can't imagine having to live my life without you by my side.
Having to sleep in a bed that's just mine.. not "ours" would feel too cold and lonely.
I could pile on blankets and blankets and have multiple heaters on in my room and have those weird hot water pillows and still feel cold and lonely.
Not being able to kiss those lips of yours, even for the slightest second, would be unbearable.
Not being able to wrap my arms around you and close my eyes, knowing that my world is right with me and forever will be.. just the thought of that is shattering my heart.
Can you imagine what it would be like if it actually happened?
If one day, I wake up without you by my side.
If one day, I wake up and you're gone and there's no way for me to reach you and all I can do is just try to remember the way your lips would move with mine.. and remember how you would make me laugh.. how you would make my heart beat fast every time your skin brushed against mine... how perfect you were for me. How perfect you are for me. How perfect you always will be. Just for me.
I love you to the ends of the earth, Lai. I really do.
