Fear is a word that means a lot to me. It's something I have become very familiar with. It's something I feel very often. Okay, maybe not as much recently, I'd say it has become less familiar to me within the last month, but it is resurfacing now. I am afraid.
I am afraid of abandonment. I am afraid that one day, you'll decide you don't love me, or you'll see how terrible I am and you'll leave.
I am afraid of being replaced. I am afraid that you'll find somebody better. I am afraid that I am not enough, even though I desperately want to be.
I am afraid I cannot show you better. I am afraid that I am no better than previous people. I am afraid that I will be thought of how they are now.
I am afraid of failing you.
