Crazy beautiful Love Old Version. (Human Verison)

Chapter twenty-nine: Welcome back alive

I stood up and went to shake Joe’s hand. “You must be Devan’s girlfriend.” I nodded my head. Devan’s mother picked up her phone, checked a text message and sighed, shoving it in her bag. I was curious about why she hated this Joe guy, was there a reason for this? Did he do something to her in the past? But beneath my curiosity, there was a small, barely perceptible flicker of fear. I didn’t trust this guy.

Rick and the rest of the group returned, but his hands were empty. Mrs. Jackson frowned at him and I gave him a puzzled look. “Devan’s awake,” He announced with a blinding smile. “He’s allowed to have visitors, but the doctor said we should limit it to at least one visitor at a time.”

I gazed up at the doctor, waiting for him to add something in but instead he just nodded his head and walked off. So much for that. Devan’s mom flew off the chair and dashed out of the waiting room. We followed her, stopping when we reached the door to Devan’s hospital room. His mother was already inside crying as she clung to her son’s hand.

Alec put his arms around me and drew me closer into his side. “I told you he would be okay!” I just nodded; I was overwhelmed by emotions to say anything in reply. I was happy Devan’s awake and I was mad at myself for breaking up with him before I found out the truth. Would he take me back? Would he even want to see me? Wait, would he even remember anything?

Would he remember me having the twins? The only thing scars me the most is, would he remember me and our love for each our?

He can’t forget any of those things. He can’t just forget about our love. This boy changed my life for the good. He was my everything, I can’t lose him. “He’s perfectly fine, Brit. Nothing to be worrying about and there’s no need to be crying over him. He’s alive, that’s all what’s matters right now. Pull all that energy towards the twins and making a good decision. When Devan is fully recovered, the first thing he might do is make things right between you two. Ya’ll belong with each other and that’s hard for me to say, you know I’m in love with you.” I knew this for years; I just didn’t feel the same way towards him. He was always just a brother to me but yeah in the first couple of months when I was pregnant, I did have feelings for him. But were the feelings gone? God, I wish I knew.

I closed my eyes trying to clear my mind. But a voice said otherwise. “Here you guys are.” I knew that voice belonged to this Joe guy. Just ignore him Britany, he then might just go away! I thought to myself. I can’t help it; something just tells me this guy was bad news. Maybe he was in jail…that could be why Devan’s mom was freaked out when she saw him in the first place!  Gosh, there could be a lot of reasons.

“Do I know you?” Devan asked. “And who are you?”

I couldn’t decide whether to answer that. Or whether I should’ve screamed and just run away or even cried. But somehow, I did neither. Across from me, lounging on the hospital bed in those white hospital gowns I knew concealed only a muscular, naked body, Devan stared at me with wide, cerulean eyes, waiting silently, and almost eagerly, for my answer. Stunned, I returned his stare without so much as a breath.

He doesn’t remember me, I wanted so badly to storm out of his room and run to Alec with tears running down my face. But I didn’t do any of that. Maybe he’s making a joke right now. He probably did remember me. God, he has to!

I saw his lips tilted upward into a smile.”I was kidding Babe. Just relax. God, you should’ve seen your face.” He laughed. “It was just priceless.”  

I just stood there and stared at him-not knowing what to say. At least he remembered me, God, I was freaking out there for a moment. But Devan was back to his old self. “What the hell!” I shouted. “God, Devan. Please don’t ever do that again, I thought for sure you didn’t remember me, this is something you don’t need to be joking around about.” I walked closer to him and took his hand. “Do you know what month it is?” I asked.

He shrugged. “My mother told me it was July the 2nd. I was out dead for months, and I don’t even remember anything besides Feb. My mother try to tell me I was in a car wreck in March, was that the truth?” I nodded my head.

“Yes. All I know is you were talking on the phone with Rick when it happened but that’s all I know.” That was half the truth, but it was good enough. “What did your mom tell you?” I asked.

He sighed. “A lot of things, she helped me to remember what I forgotten.” To me this was way too early for him to try to remember things; he had just woken up from his coma, what did his mother thought when she done what she did? “I know that look, Britany. At first my mother wouldn’t tell me anything, I had to make her!” Devan threw an arm over my shoulders and pulled me down onto his chest. Shoving his face into my hair, he breathed in deeply. “I remember bits and prices but that’s all…I felt like something happened between us before the car accident.”

I gave him a sharp look. “It doesn’t even matter right now. It’s better for you not to remember.”  I can’t let him know about the break up. He might not want to come back to me and the thought of that just broke my heart.

“You do know that I will remember everything in time?” He said. And the thought of that just freaked me out. I nodded and turned my head up, studying his features. “Please tell me, I need to know.”

“It’s too soon.” I replied. “You can’t make yourself remember things.” I fought back the tears. “Some things are better off not knowing…trust me when I say this….”

                                                  Devan Jackson

What was she hiding from me? Was it something so big that she’s afraid I would leave her alone with the twins-and me not coming back-I want her to know neither of those things would happened. She needed to know I could trust her and always will, nothing would change that. How could I make her see this?

“Fine, I will let it go just for right now.” I told her. “I just don’t know why you won’t tell me what had happened between us-whatever it was, you know we can get pass it.”

She slowly nodded and titled her head up to me. “I love you Devan and only you, but the thought of you remembering this fight will just break my heart into pieces.  It will make feel like I’m nothing. Like a part of me will die with you leaving me.”