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Michelle's POV
now was the time.
I looked back at the cars racing behind me
nobody seemed to care.
I took another step
I looked up at the buildings above me
nobody there seemed to care either
I put one foot on the ledge
nobody ever seemed to care.
I put the other foot up.
I looked around once more, the beautiful sounds of nature. The people walking around, eating ice cream. the mums shouting at their children.
I thought about how I wouldn't get to have children,
how I'd never see the pyramids or the Eiffel tower.
I'd never get a job,
never go to college
never open up a small bookshop
never graduate,
never get married,
never have a love,
never a kiss,
never a family
I thought about how my last meal was the leftover mac + cheese I had for breakfast this morning and how I'd dropped a spoonful on the pavement on my way out.
I thought of my family, too busy to ever notice when I'm not around,
and I thought of my friends.
Not that I had any.
pretty soon I'd be the spoonful of mac + cheese someone dropped on the pavement,
not even caring about the mess.
But that didn't bother me
I looked down at the water
I put my hands out in the air
and I leaned forward.
they say your life rushes past you in your final moments.
But all I saw was an image of my younger sister knocking over my lego house, over and over again.
I felt my stomach hurdle as the water grew closer.
I never got a chance to say goodbye to anyone.
Not properly.
Not Flash,
not Betty,
not Ned,
and especially not Peter.
I felt a small surge of regret tingle through my body.
but it didn't matter.
there was no hope now.
I closed my eyes
and felt the breeze ruffle through my shirt for the last time,
softly brushing against my skin
until it stopped
and all I felt was
warmth.
the feeling of life hugging me tightly.
the arms wrapped around me telling me I wasn't alone
showing me that somebody cared.
reassuring me
I'd get to do all those things, I never got a chance to
to see the pyramids and the Eiffel tower
to go to college
get a degree
graduate
get a job
open a bookshop on the corner of the street
get married
and have a family of my own
comforting me
there was a hope for me
and things could get better
I clang onto him tightly,
his arms around me
his warmth engulfing me in every aspect.
not only did I have to live
I wanted to
and he let me
softly whispering in my ear,
"I've got you,
I've got you
it'll all be alright"
I felt myself slowly letting go
"I'm slipping"
I whimpered under my lose breath
"No, you're not,
I'm never letting go of you
not until the day I die,
you have to hang in there for me
it'll just be a little longer
and then we'll be safe"
I opened my eyes
and I was safe.
And He kept his promise too.
he never let go.
that loser
never let go.
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Spideychelle - one-shots
Fanfictiona bunch of random one-shots surrounding Peter and MJ