11:53 P.M. Chapter 1 Wednesday, July 30, 2014
As I Sat here in my backyard, drinking wine, & listening to my slow jams CD. I Wondered why in the hell was this happening? Why had so many people just decided to up and walk out of my life after I had done so much for them? I know I'm an adult and I should already know better, and know that "Life happens", but I still have that lingering thought why?Why had so many things gone wrong? Why couldn't I just be happy?
I had my Feet dangling in the water of my 8ft deep pool that I could not swim in. & I was a miserable height of 5'0 ft. I Grabbed the bottle up and took a long swig of it and slammed it back down making the bottle collapse within itself.
Then Anthony Hamilton- Her Heart came on and tears streamed down my face as I shook my head because the lyrics were all too real for me.
I had a habit of messing up
We Both Did
Staying out late and getting drunk
I Wish I Was
I let you down a thousand times
But Why?
Broken promises
Too Many To Count
It's like I ran away from you
Right Out That Door And Never Returned Again
My career was my excuse
I Slipped Down In The Pool
Until I saw you about to drown in your own tears
His Voice Was Muffled Out Due To The Water But I Knew The Song Too Well
And as you cried in my arms
I Saw A Figure At The Other End
You woke up my heart
Then I Heard Other Muffled Sounds That Didn't Mix With The Music
And I saw again what I found in you
Someone Splashed In
Cause her heart, her heart wont let me lose her
My Chest Began To Feel Heavy And I Couldn't Hold My Breath Any Longer
No matter how I try
The Air Bubbles Went Into My Nose & To The Top
I just cant say goodbye and lose her
Strong Hands Snatched Me Up Like A Rag Doll As I Inhaled The Water
When all the folks were said and done
I Was Dragged Back Up & Immediately Started Coughing
You were there to welcome me home
I Tried Coughing Harder To Get Out The Water
I was convicted cause your love never wavered
It Hurt But It Worked
I know you love me more than me
Then Two Slaps Sounded, I Couldn't See Because The Water Hurt My Eyes
And you vowed to love through anything
Tobias Came And Pulled Me Into Him And Rocked Me Back And Forth
I never had a kind of love that was forever
I Was Breathing Hard Then Anthony Said It
And as you cried in my arms
Then I Followed Suit With The Lyrics And Cried Hoarsly
You woke up my heart
Then My Eyes Opened And He Had Tears Piling Up In His Eyes
And I saw again what I found in you
In All My Years Of Knowing Him I'd Never Seen Him Crying
Cuz her love, her love wont let me lose her
I Hadn't Seen Him In Two Years When He Walked Out That Door
No matter how I try
Nobody Ever Felt The Same
I just cant say goodbye and lose her
He Always Came Back & This Time On Time
Cuz her heart, her heart wont let me lose her
His Tears Fell On My Face
No matter how hard I try
He Kept Rocking Me & Holding On To Me So Tight
I just cant say goodbye and lose her
I Felt Weak & Helpless
No matter how hard I try
I Got This I Don't Need Help
I just cant say goodbye and lose her
I Began To Push Him Back Until I Was Out Of His Deathly Grasp
No matter how I try
I Walked Away Not Looking Only To Fall From Glass Sticking In My Foot
I just cant say goodbye and lose her
Only For Him To Come To My Rescue Once Again
I Don't Have This
I Never Did And Probably Never Will Without Him
I just can't say goodbye.
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These Tears I Cry Are Not For YOU
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