BTS 8th member

Anger

I was most likely to be bored and i kept on reading ideas from different writers and i've been wanting to write/type down an chapter about arguements , small fights and more between the members including you. so i hope its great :). please send requests or at least vote. i would appreciate that.

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Being in a group consist 7 guys could be awkward and fun at the same time. But its normal for a group to have small fights or arguements. but to me , its fine for a small debating over some shits  but its not cool until you are gonna give some shitty personal thinking. come to the thought of it , its part of my fault.. if i dont snapped back or my APPEARANCE is better than now i guess Bangtan would be better... or are they better without me.... 

FLASHBACK

We are practicing our 'Blood Sweat and tears' dance. i guess im just not in a good mood today that i kinda messed up alot. i could see the frustration in their faces every time i messed up , every time all of us got scolded by our choreographer and every time we had to restart our dance all over again. i was actually having a bad headache ever siince morning till now. im just holding the pain back because i dont want to cause any troubles for the boys to reschedule our schedule all over again cause the boys are as tired as me too or maybe even worse.

i kept on stumbling and kept on falling on my 'bum' because at the chorus part we have to jump and move fast. i could see the angerness in everyone's face. everything was good till Jungkook had enough and said "yah! cant you just get the steps right? all of us wanted to go home. all of us are tired." 

"i'm sorry. i didnt mean to hold everyone back.. i'm really sorr-" i was talking as Yoongi interrupted saying "saying sorry doesnt solve any problems you're creating. you know what? i think you dont deserve to be in bangtan. you're gonna bring our name down if you kept on doing bullshits like this" as soon as he said that , my tears went down my cheeks as if its raining. i was so mad , sad , dissapointed and more at myself and them. i tried to say this calmly and said to them "you know what? i'm gonna practice in another practice room. you guys can leave without me or better like yoongi oppa said.. i'll leave bangtan for the sake of you guys success."

i grabbed my back and ran towards my studio as fast i could and lock the doors. i walked towards my comfy work chair and cry as much as i could till i fall asleep.. i suddenly woke up to the sound of my phone ringing , i walk towards my phone and switched it on to see what time is it. it's 4.00am. i see the caller id its 'seokjin oppa~' . i picked up the phone and answer bluntly.

your convo with jin:

you: yes? how may i help you? *cold tone*

Jin: hey dongsaeng... where are you? why arent you homed yet? all of us are worried about you..

you: dont bother waiting for me. just go to sleep peacefully.

Jin: come on dont be like this to your oppa.. please come home now..

you: i've told you to not wait for me.. so if you're taking the risk of waiting for with no sleep and only god knows what time i'm coming home then go ahead.

And with that you end the call , you then open up one of your shelve's to take out one new notebook and start working on the new song that you've written.. you've been working on the new song for more than 2 hours and you decided to went back to the dorm to wash up , change clothes and grab a snack before starting my silent treatment since they prefer me to be like almost invisible to them so i'm giving that now..