My eyes skimmed over the sea of people in front of me.
I watched as each of their faces looked up at us in awe.
'Sevenfold, Sevenfold, Sevenfold!' They chanted, over and over again.
I tried to focus on the show, but my head wasn't in it.
I have everything.
A successful career, a group of friends that would walk through fire for me, an amazing family, and a girlfriend.
A girlfriend that cheats on me, uses me for what I have and what I can give her.
A girlfriend that doesn't care about me at all.
A girlfriend, who for some reason, made me turn my back on the only woman, who ever really cared for me.
Alexis.
My best friend.
My confident.
My love.
A woman that was there for me through thick and thin.
Who stood by me and with me, even after all of the bullshit I put her through.
I felt my face heat up with emotion as I thought back to the day she finally told me she had had enough.
The memory was still fresh, and it was still painful to think about.
~ Flashback ~
"I can't do this anymore, Brian." Alexis said.
"What do you mean?" I asked, knowing full well what she was talking about.
"I can't do this anymore. Me and you. I can't be around you anymore, feeling the way that I do. It kills me every time I watch you and Michelle together. I love you. I'm in love with you. And you've known this, for years." She said, her eyes filling with tears.
I looked down, not being able to handle the look in her eyes.
"Alex, I've told you before. I don't feel the same way you do for me. You know I love you. But, I'm not in love with you." I said.
She stayed quiet for a moment, and each second that passed by, was like a stab to my heart.
The truth was, I do love Alexis.
As more then friends.
I have for some time now.
But when I finally realized what it was that I was feeling, I was too scared to tell her.
Alexis isn't like other women.
She's special.
She's the kind of person that makes you happy by just smiling.
The kind of person that gets along with everyone she meets, and that can make the most awkward situation feel comfortable.
"Why? What does she have that I can't give you, Brian?" Alexis cried.
I turned away from her.
'You have to do this. You have to do this.' I repeated to myself in my head.
Alexis deserves someone great.
A man that's going to be there for her, and support her, no matter where her dreams may lead her.
I can't do that.
And it kills me.
It kills me to even think about another man touching her.
