Bawi ako sa lahat. Mas mahaba sa Chapter 6.
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“Lord, Thank you!” You say reverently.
It’s been two days since you left. Two days that you have been alone. For the first time in your life, you now know what it means to be ON YOUR OWN. Literally.
Though it might not be ideal, you feel that this is the best way to get your point across. That you are finally ready to take control of your own life. That finally, you will not be anyone’s puppet anymore. That you are a WOMAN OF YOUR OWN.
But before you could claim the world as your own. You have first to conquer yourself. For in all of the things that has happened, you’re greatest critic has not been the people around you. Nor has it been the nastiest bunch of the media or the rabid fans. It has always been yourself.
Thus the reason for your leaving.
It was not to go and be with HIM. Yet. You know that everyone will think that. But this is not about HIM. Not exactly.
This is about you. You, trying to discover yourself. Away from all the glitz and glamour that has been your life. This is about you trying to understand your limits. What you can and cannot do. What you can and cannot face.
This is also about you stepping out of your parent’s shadow. For the longest time, you have been dependent on them for everything. They got so used to doing everything for you and running your life for you that you feel like a spectator to your own life. You couldn’t really fault them though. It only happened because you let them.
So getting away for a while will be a learning experience for both parties. You, to do things on your own. Decide for yourself. And for them to realize that it is time that they allow you to be free.
Self –discovery. Yon! Yon ang goal ng pag-alis mo!
Kasi hindi sapat yong sa TINGIN mo, kaya mo. Iba pa rin ang ALAM mo talaga na kaya mo.
At pagdating ng panahon na napatunayan mo na sa sarili mo na kaya mo na talaga, tsaka ka babalik. For YOURSELF. For your Happiness. FOR HIM.
For really, how could you stand and fight for someone else when you don’t even know if you can fight for yourself?
“Wahhhhhhh… Sarah, bangon na! Wala kang grocery! Self-discovery ka diyan. Mamaya na yang self-discovery mo. Walang kang pagkain!”
At tuluyan ka ngang bumangon para gumayak. Grocery. Bongga lang. Pakakapag-grocery ka na!
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“Sarah Geronimo, Missing in Action? Although the Viva Management and the Popstar Princess’ family has issued a statement that Sarah is on a much deserved holiday, supporters are still doubtful. After the unexpected showing of a pre-taped episode of Sarah G Live last Sunday, speculation ran rampant that the Princess is nowhere to be found and not even her management, friends and family have any idea of her whereabouts. Add to the frenzy is the sudden return of the one and only Gerald Anderson who arrived earlier this morning. When the rumour that Sarah has left without word to anyone, most people assumed that she would be meeting with Gerald. But with Gerald back in Manila alone, the question remains, Where is our Popstar Princess?”
“Dumating na pala talaga si Gerald” narinig mong sabi ng Mommy mo. Masyadong kang nakafocus sa tv na hindi mo namalayan ang paglapit nito.
