The alarm goes off and I'm awake, I mean I know i set the alarm but it still haunts me. If I don't wake up at this time then I'd feel as if my morning was wasted. If i woke up at 6 I'd have to leave by 7:50 so I'd spend that time getting ready instead of relaxing for a bit. I mean it doesn't take me too long to get ready but I might have homework due in on the day so i have to do that.
I normally just watch some videos or something but sometimes i just lay down and think, i wish i didn't, it normally makes me feel sad for most of the day but i try to ignore it, i might do homework occasionally during this time but I'd normally do it later.
The result of this is that I'm tired all day even if i fall back to sleep I still end up tired.
Sometimes I don't even want to go to sleep because i know what awaits me in the morning but once I'm asleep I don't want to wake up. Any other time i just always want to be asleep, maybe this is because I'm childish and don't want to face reality or maybe i just hate reality, probably both but i know that being alive is kind of sad to be honest.
