Waking up in the morning and your love not being there hurts. Hurts more than imaginable. My soul-mate. After a one night stand he leaves me...out of nowhere. It feels like my fucking heart was ripped out of my chest and torn to shreads. I woke up cold then the tears started streaming again, remembering our huge fight. Fighting with him hurt soooo much...We're meant to be and him not being near me made me feel so guilty. Soul-mates don't fight...it made me doubt things...a lot of things. Like whether or not we were meant to be or if it was just lust covering my senses. It made me wonder why I fell in love with him in the first place. Should I leave him?? Pull through??? It seems are relationship is going nowhere whatsoever...Like he hates me. What should I do?? Should I hate him? Ask for him back?? I felt something hot and wet and noticed it was tears. I sat up and folded my legs, staring at the walls. I need him...I just don't know what to do. I need help. I'm going crazy. I should hope I'm not pregnant. I'd have to get an abortion. I can't raise a child on my own...My mother couldn't do that. Why do I do this to myself?? Every man that comes into my life, I fight with him. He needs to come back to me. Now.
