Just a Year

30

5/24

Sam,

I'm sorry. I didn't mean to cause you so much pain. I didn't mean to be an awful big brother. I didn't mean to go how I did. But you have to stay strong. I know you've tried, you've tried so hard, and I understand. You have a future though. You'll find a nice lady and you'll live a happy life. You won't think about me every day. Just promise you won't forget me.

Don't you dare harm even a hair on that head of yours because of me. I need to know you are okay, that you'll be okay.

If it makes you feel better, I'm not dead. I'm not the same though, I'm a monster. It's not something I want you to see. It's not the me I want you to remember. We can get through this. You can get through this. But remember I'm always with you, for you, protecting you.

I love you Sammy.

Dean.