We were a happy family.
my mom became a writed in a small magazine and dad worked there as a photographer , because now he has a family , a responsibility, he can’t leave us alone and I was growing up happy and ignorant . just enjoying my peaceful life.I didn’t notice at first but mom’s health strated declining and getting worst day after day , hospitals and checks became her daily routine,
a when I was 6 she passed away and that’s where my life crumbeled.
My dad became drunkman, he started to drift out from my life day after another .That’s when I realized he wasn’t’ fit to be a father since the first place, when mom was still alive, she was the one taking care of me most of the time , taking me to everyplace she found interesting,to the park , the museum, playing with me. going shopping with which always end with her spending all her money on useless stuff, but for dad, I don't remember spending much time with him most of it was meal time or mom dragging him with us somewhere , never us alone
,playing baseball or football like all the kids , we Didn't have that habit, but momwas there with me so I didn’t feel something a miss but now I do .
I started to take care of everything at home from cleaning to cooking I just wanted to be of use, I wanted him to notice me, to know that I'm here for him, so I need him to be here for me too.But everyday ,my effort was useless ,was in vain,my life became a repeating routine I wake up make breakfast and clean a little then go to school I leave him lunch so he can eat later, came back at evening to cook dinner and clean after his mess, then when it’s 22: 00, I go the bar cause I know he’s gonna be dead drunck over there I bring him home and that’s how my life passed for the next 2 years .
Yeah "Joy" don’t make me lought, sometimes I wonder if life is taking revenge of me cause my parents called me Joy Yokiku but I still didn’t loose hope.
My dad got firred from his job, well I can’t blame them , his attending declined month after another till he stopped going at all 6 months after my mom passed away,and he didn’t inted to find a new one, so I started part time job at the same bar that my dad visits, even thought it’s illegal I did’t care ,I just wanted to make money .
Even though I can feel the boss staring at me in dirty way all the time, not forgetting the costumers harassment all the time, I still didn’t care, money was more important,in those years my appearance started to change and open up, I was shorter than boys my age 1'66and I’m not trying to be cocky but I became super cute small face small pointy nose full pink lips and green eyes with a soft shiny hair, till now I don’t know the exact name of the color it's black mixed up with silver lines
Sometimes I wonder is that why we are called the silver family
Any way ,even thought I was a boy I got a lot of confessions from boys in my school, streets, the bar ...I was suffering from all this attention, but I did’t give up
I grew up my hair , a long bang to hide my face adding to that a pair of glasses ,the typical nerd style that saved me a little ,but still at the bar I have to get back to my old style. but at least that gave me a little peaceful life out of the bar. Or so I thought.
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General FictionLonely life lonely days sometime, I feel like I'm not living my life more like I'm finishing it With no ending to my wishes and regrets In addition, like that I died without achieving anything Joy is my name but I've never found happiness and ju...