Forget-me-not and Rosemary

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I got the good side of things

Left you with both of the ringsMy fingers danced and swayed in the breezeThe change in the wind took you down to your kneesI got the good side of youSent it out into the blueThe people danced to the sound of your heartThe world sang along to it falling apartBut I sympathize, and I recognizeAnd baby, I apologizeThat I got the good sideThe good side of thingsI got the good side of life (good side of life)Traveled the universe twice (the universe twice)So many thoughts I wanted to shareBut I didn't call 'cause it wouldn't be fairThen I got the good side of newFound arms to fall right intoI know how it looked, it wasn't the planAnd some day I hope that you'll understandI sympathize, and I recognizeAnd baby, I apologizeThat I got the good sideThe good side of thingsI'm sure we'll meet in the springAnd catch up on everythingI'll say I'm proud of all that you've doneYou taught me the ropes, and you taught me to loveBut I sympathize, and I recognizeAnd baby, I apologizeThat I got the good sideThe good side of thingsSympathize, recognizeApologizeThat I got the good sideThe good side of things

Jisung's voice echoed through the bedroom. Minho was silently listening while reading a book. From the outside it might have looked like a normal happy couple, but the tension in the room was unbelievably strong. The blinds didn't let any sunshine through, and Jisung had no idea if it was night or day. But that didn't matter, right? He had Minho to himself, and even though he wasn't allowed to go out of the apartment, he was happy. He was happy. He tells himself he was happy. He tells Minho that he's happy. If his friends or the police finds him one day while Minho is out doing god knows what, he'll tell them he's happy. Because Jisung believes he's happy. He truly does. And he won't let anyone take away that happiness.

I'm sorry, it's my fault
Thank you, it's all thanks to you
These were words you said out of habit
Even though I knew you were struggling too
You probably think I'm a fool
If I say that things are hard with a crying face
Will it really get better?If I cry and say it hurts, who will have a harder time?Everyone will be fine
Maybe we trapped each other
Inside our own misunderstandings
No, you don't understand me
Whenever I see your worried eyes
Baby I'm so Lonely so Lonely
I feel like I'm alone
When I see you so tired
I worry that I'm baggage to you
That I'm too much
Baby I'm so Lonely so Lonely
I feel like I'm alone
I don't want to make it obvious to you
I'm used to just holding it in
Understand me
We're together but we're not walking together
Loneliness and misery, the difference is only one memory

But why do you keep trying to write it as something else?Baby I'm so Lonely so Lonely
I feel like I'm alone
I don't want to make it obvious to you
I'm used to just holding it in
Understand me
Leave me alone
Baby I'm so Lonely so Lonely
I feel like I'm alone
Baby I'm so Lonely so Lonely
I feel like I'm alone
Still, I don't wanna hide it from you
But I'm used to just holding it in
Understand me

Jisung didn't know what was leaving his lips. The words just flew out, like they needed to. It was like a strong wind just took the words with it like the leafs outside. And without knowing hot tears where streaming down his cold cheeks. Minho noticed, but didn't do anything. Instead he let the younger cry in peace. 

Jisung was glad Minho didn't ask what was wrong. Because he didn't know himself. He supposed he missed the others. He missed Felix's energy, and Hyunjin's judging look whenever someone did something stupid. He missed Jeongin's comebacks, and Seungmin's laughter. Most of all, he missed Woojin, Chan and Changbin.
Changbin.
Oh, how he missed his brother. He wanted to hug him. He wanted him to pat him on the back, and make a stupid joke. Changbin was his only family. Because his mom was dead. And his dad killed her.
Now Jisung felt angry. Why had his dad killed his mom?! What had she done to deserve that?!

"Are you my family?" Jisung asked the reading boy. "I'm your future, Jisung." Minho answered looking up from the book. "Do you love me then?" Jisung asked, his gaze empty. "I love you more than anything else in this world." Minho answered back. His words were so blank, it really sounded like a fact. "Then i love you." Jisung smiled. 

He couldn't remember what he was doing in the beautifully decorated room. But he didn't care as long as reading boy was there.

The Songs used are "Good side"- by Troye Sivan. And "Lonely"- by Jonghyun

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