! MY LIFE STORY!

part 2 of my life

Today was a horrible day.. Everybody is mad at me i hurt myself... And..
Teachers not helping me when i need the help....
Each say that i get yelled at or my friends judging me fir being bisexual..
I hurt my self i even think of suicide.
But at the same time i think why is life worth living?
Each day i think to myself 'no one loves me.. '
I am insecure about my body.. Me being fat well... People make fun if me for that.
Not having curves like the rest of the girls.
Not having a bf.
Not being skinny.
My lips being small.
I look at myself in the bathroom mirror and say inside of my head " im not good enough im ugly.. "
I think if me as a fat pig a fat pig that cannot stop eating nor defend its self from the big people.
What if i am gonna a be lonely for the rest of my life?
Im afraid of being lonely...
But when i remebered this ehat i have told my self i thought.
Maybe i like my body..
No.. I was wrong..
I never grew curves im not pretty enough i have a ugly face which need to be covered in makeup and make my self look like a idiot.
Maybe just maybe i will be beautiful.. I mean
Dont rush things i kinda love my body...