when i say i'm ugly, i mean it.
when i say i'm fat, i mean it.
i mean whatever i say. i don't want you to say "oh no, you aren't! " and "omg but you're so skinny!"
and the worst part? they say i'm vain for saying that. oh, the joy. i feel so disgusting with myself. i hate myself to say the least, okay. i don't want to look at pictures or selfies with other people, because well i am ugly. i feel ugly. i feel it in my bones, my veins, my being. oh god i hate my self.
and okay, let's get back on track. i am very insecure, very. and i cannot even be insecure to my closet friends. they'll say i'm vain, i'm arrogant because well i say that. i don't understand but i hate myself and i can't express anything. andddddd i feel overwhelming self hatred for myself when they say that. i feel like they've stabbed me deeper where i've already been stabbed already.
oh fuck. there's my self hatred coming now.
YOU ARE READING
the letters i wrote to me.
Poetryletters you should read if you're sad and need some confort in knowing you aren't alone.
