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Hyung,
I went to our place today.
Like I do everyday.
The dirty, old practice room that no one ever uses for anything but storage.
We used to go there everyday, just the two of us ,and escape from our hectic schedeules.
You would hold me close and sing to me.
Now, I'm always alone there.
Minho hyung came searching for me today.
He didn't have to search far.
I go to practice, work myself until I'm too exhausted to think, then I go here.
It's my routine.
It helps me not think about you as much.
I was crying when hyung found me - yeah, bawling my eyes out is also part of my new routine.
He and the other members are worried, since I've been 'lethargic, distant and withdrawn'.
That's what Minho hyung said, at least.
I refused to say anything.
Like usual.
I don't think I've spoken since you left, actually. Maybe the occasional 'okay' and such, but you were the last person I had a proper conversation with.
I just don't have the energy to talk anymore, nor anything to say.
It's been four months and I still can't cope without you.
Pathetic, I know.
I'm making my hyungs worry and probably destroying everything you worked so hard to build.
I can't let that happen.
You worked so hard.
I have to try harder.
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Gone || JeongChan
Fanfiction-- Hyung, I don't think I can do this anymore. Not without you. -- - COMPLETED - Yang Jeongin + bang Chan. Short story. Includes very triggering topics including suicide and self harm.
