Marrying a Jerk | Jeon Jungkook

Introduction

Note before we start: This book contains self harm and depression, It also contains harsh words. So if you have a weak heart, please don't read this.ღ ϡ  

[ Your POV ] (Park Haerin)

I was in our balcony, looking in the stars. I love looking at the stars. It is beautiful in its simple way, also the moon. I love it. Looking at them made me forget all my anxiety and problems. The fresh air, the coldness  of the wind is like the coldness that my  husband would give me.

Jeon Jungkook, the guy who ruins my life. He's very aggressive. And he is a playboy, he never actually cares for me, he would come home in 12 am looking all drunk, his red eyes and fierce look could kill me already. 

Oh, forgot to introduce myself.

Hello, I'm Park Haerin. Also called as 'ugly'  or a complete nerd when in collage, wearing eyeglasses, and very skinny. Until now, and that lead me to depression. Anxiety was my friend, It would be with me always. 

And I also started cutting my wrist, the blood and pain disappeared but the scar didn't.

I'm 23, very young to get marry right? 

But my 'lovely' Parents arranged me a marriage with a jerk without even thinking about my feelings. They said it was the sake for my family and company.

But despite all the hates and bullies I gained back then and from my husband until now, I also have my one friend who loves me more than I love  myself. And his name is Kim Taehyung. He is always with me.

He said to take off my eyeglasses because there was no use of putting it on because my eyes were all okay but I didn't listen.

He was my only friend. 

I could even remembered  what Jungkook say when our  wedding celebration ended, just recently.   

"Do whatever you want, I don't care. Live life like how you used to, Don't make me as a part of your life. Even though we live in the same roof but act like we are strangers. We have boundaries. I don't care about you so don't get jealous when I bring girls in this house. I don't believe in love." 

Taehyung almost killed Jungkook but I told him to stop and just don't care about him.

What Jungkook had tell me was true, he brings girls. But I wouldn't care. I would never take a glance. I just would see them in the corner in my eyes making-out, and me jealous? nah.

I tried loving him, I tried to think that maybe he'll change but I also remembered what he told me "Don't make me as a part of your life" Sooo, I did what he says.

You wanna meet Jeon Jungkook? sure. But  a disclaimer. He's a complete asshole.

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It was still 9 pm and I was in the living room watching my favorite Chinese Drama, "meteor garden" in my mac.

"Aishh, what the heck? his mom is like my husband! Ugh, I'm so pissed of!" I shouted at myself when I could see Jungkook in the door, his unbuttoned polo and messed up hair, I paused my video and raised my eyebrows

I'm surprised, why is he home so early?

"what?" He ask and raised his eyebrows as well.

"Nothing, why are you home so early?" I asked, he chuckles.

"why? is it bad to come home early? Oh, should I go in the club tonight? let me see" He says and looks at his wrist watch.

"Go on" I say and played the drama again.