*I sigh..
I closed my eyes and take a deep breath.
I was on my bed...
I heard them talking about me..
They thought I was sleeping already.
I heard it all clearly.
They're more than backstabber.
They're more than enemies.
They're like evils in the house of silence.
I never open my eyes,
And I feel my tears from my eye.
I feel crying.
Damn..
I am silently sobbing.
Can't control enough.
Why?
Why do I?
Do I need?
Need to be this?
To be this thing?
Alone?
Can't talk to anyone?
Hiding it all alone?
Just tried to keep silent.
So no one can notice,
So no one can judge.
Please stop..
I feel so weak.
Hope I have someone to talk about this and know that can trust him.
Hopefully...
Why I had a life like this?
Why they're like that?
Why I can't have anyone?
Pretending to be happy but not..
There're tears inside of me.
I feel so drown,
But silence still keep.
I smile but had tears.
Like insane and stupid.
Have no idea how to fix it all.
They're all shouting at me.
They're all making noises.
They're all like want to end me up.
They're all the reason why I am scared to make my voice.
I am more than a human without voice.
I am not literally but much.
I let them kick me out, punch me on my heart, crush my brain and get my eyes.
I let them get my tongue, cover my ears, punch my nose and slap me.
I still in silence..
How do I fight for things like this?
They're stronger than me,
And they have right.
I am opposite.
I had lot of words but no sounds.
I need real friends, real family, real world, real life, real love, real things and real me.
But I just keep in silence and stay nothing.
