forty-two || jilix

XIV

i sit next to your grave

" i miss you baby ."

i stare up at the sky

counting each star carefully

they twinkle and shine

reminding me of your eyes when you used to cry

the constellations , of when i used to connect your freckles with a sharpie

i count up slowly stopping when i get to forty-two

i let out a quiet sob and shake my head

" why'd you leave me baby boy ?"

i quietly ask as i stare at the forty second star

a tear slips and i close my eyes

" i love you baby ."

" you and all forty-two of your freckles ."