Living With The Bad Boy ✔️

10

( this is Hayden's pov of when Bianca asked Hayden out )

Hayden's pov

"Yo Hayden imma use your car I'm just going to the supermarket" Luna said

"Yeah yeah" I said not really paying attention to what she was saying because I was too busy on my phone

A few minutes had passed and I heard a knock on the door

I didn't expect anyone, it must just be Luna

But why can't she we just come in

I walked towards the door and opened it totally surprised to see who was the person that had knocked on, in fact it wasn't Luna it was Bianca

"Are you going to invite me in or...?"

"oh uh yh.. Come in"

I stepped out the way giving her enough room to come in. She walked straight to the living room, me following behind her

She sat down on the couch and I sat opposite her she didn't say anything until Luna came back but I didn't pay attention to her, I was more curious as to why Bianca came over, we didn't plan a fuck session, did we?

"Hayden, I liked you for a long Time, and have finally found the courage to confess my feelings to you, will you, Hayden be my boyfriend" she said, her voice higher than usual

I know she doesn't do dating, she fucks and dumps, just like me, but what I didn't understand was why she is asking me out all of a sudden

I looked towards Luna asking her for permission with my face, i didn't know why but I felt like i had to do this

As I looked over to Luna she looked like she was hurt and her eyes was glossy

Is she upset?

Nah that can't be, why would she be upset because I know for a fact that she doesn't like me

Shaking that thought out my head I decided to kiss her for my answer and then I heard a door slamming shut coming from upstairs

"I'll take that as a yes" she said with a giggle

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Luna's pov

Why do things like these always happen to me

Ugh I'm such a fool for falling for him, I thought he liked me too but I guess I was wrong

This day couldn't go any worse

Before I knew it I was balling my eyes out

I heard a knock on the door and I quickly wiped my tears away

"Can I come in?" He said in that soft voice that I loved

Ugh stop it Already, get over him he has a girlfriend he will never like someone like you, my inner voice told me

Shut up already, I know that, I replied arguing with my inner voice, but I snapped back into reality when another knock was heard on the door

"Yeah come in" I said while my voiced cracked slightly

Oh no he better not have noticed

"Are you okay, you seem upset?" He asked, concern laced in his voice

"Uh y-y-yeah, I just remembered something sad and it's the time of the month again, that's all" I stuttered giving him a small smile reassuring him that everything is ok

"Are you sure your okay" he said still not quiet convinced

"Ye ye, I just want to be alone" I said without stuttering this time

"Oh okay, well I guess I'll just see you later then" he said disappointed

I nodded before he walked out, as he was out the door I started crying again

I couldn't handle this anymore, the pain it's all to much

I walked into the bathroom and got my razor

I hate being this weak girl, yeah i might smile all the time, pretending I'm happy and acting like I'm strong but that's all just an act so people don't find out that I'm just a weak, broken girl. I don't need people to pity me  

I started cutting

1 for my horrible life
2 for liking Hayden
3 for being weak
4 for having a horrible mother

I decided I should stop, I couldn't kill my self, I couldn't bring myself to do it, because if I kill myself I'd be free from the pain but I think about the pain I could cause others, the people that truly love and care for me would go through the pain, and I couldn't let that happen

I couldn't believe it, after so many years of not cutting I start again, Hayden being the trigger for that

I decided to clean everything and go to sleep

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This was a really touchy subject for me but ayeo at least I updated

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