"min yoongi?"
when they say his name he starts up
with hellfire still burning behind his
eyes from
the last nightmare
and his hands shaking like he is someone else, someone older.
someone who is
maybe
really insane.
he knows it is all a ploy, and he knows that his father thought
it would be best for him to be
here
instead of prison or a juvenile detention center or
a graveyard,
because maybe he would have gotten more than a life-sentence
maybe it would have really been a
life sentence.
the idea is that he killed someone
and if it was not done in cold-blood because of some dark hatred of humanity he must just
be insane. of course, the panic attack he had in court helped
and of course with
being here so long
(three years)
maybe he really is acting insane by now but he couldn't actually say so he just sleeps
and eats and looks blearily at the misty rain
blowing across his windows, just like all the misty things blowing through
his head. the rain tapping on the roof
even now
as he comes awake from sticky sleep with someone calling his name like he still exists as a person.
"min yoongi?"
"yes?" (and his throat is sand from not talking)
and the woman standing in the door says,
"you have a visitor."
he thinks he knows maybe maybe maybe but it couldn't possibly be her.
but who else
would
it be?
"her name is yeon-hee."
he stares, blankly.
"you killed her brother?"
saying that like it's just some black and white fact, he thinks. you careless bitch.
"fine," he says. "can i have a moment to get ready?"
there is nothing to get ready for, but she nods anyway.
in the white silence falling around him, he remembers her dark eyes and her wet little mouth
twisting with hatred. and the way she cried in court.
it has been a long time since he's seen her.
he pulls out his phone and
looks at the
last message he sent her.
i'll never tell i promise
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rain is also grey | 민윤기
قصص الهواةhe paid for her secrets with a faked insanity. she's grieving, but not for the reasons they think. everyone thinks he's a murderer, and she would never say otherwise. after all, he killed her brother. didn't he?
