Your Perfect Just The Way You Are [Killmare]

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Heeeeya guys! I know I've been dead for what seems like forever, but I'm back! Sorry for that long wait! ^^"

I may or may not have gotten into trouble! And may or may not still be in trouble! But never the less I'll still try to update! They'll just kind of slow for a while!

Hope you enjoy the story!

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Killer stood in his and his boyfriend bedroom and gazed into the mirror a large towel wrapped around his waist. He let out a sigh and glanced away from the mirror he glared weakly at the ground grasping at the towel. He hated this. How he couldn't look at his body no matter how much Nightmare told him how perfect he was. He just couldn't perceive it. Everything was so distorted so scared and imperfect to him. When he looked at the mirror all he saw was...How Fat he was, how Vulgar he was, how Scared he was. "That's what I get for cutting...." he whispered lowly to himself. He tilted his head to look at the mirror once more. He gripped the towel tighter before loosening his grip. "No...I can't...do it..." Killer spoke weakly he hadn't even noticed the tears that formed in his eyes. He let out a shaky sigh as he sunk to the ground. He hugged himself tightly, tears falling from his eyes faster. "Ugly...so....ugly..." He spoke to himself scoffing. "I bet Nightmare only pities me.....that's the only reason he's still with me...he doesn't love me..." Killer whispered a small shaky smile curled his lips before he broke down. "God, why do I have to be so sensitive!?" Killer yelled sightly as tears poured from his eyes and sobs escaped his lips. "F-fat..s-so *Hic* fat...No one would *Hic* love a heifer like *Hic* me..." Killer spoke a little louder despite his shaky voice. Hiccups disrupting his speech, he smiled his lip quivering as he tried to keep his smile. Killer looked back to the mirror and let his smile drop. "Ya...not loved...Nightmares probably cheating on me with Cross......he's so perfect......Cross can give him everything and what can I do?...nothing but disgust him...I'm a worthless pig." He muttered mindlessly to himself. Continuing the endless stream of mindless curses to himself. Why was it that he always seemed to break down when he was alone? Where his thoughts too much for him? Was he really just that inadequate? Killer eventually tried himself out his gross sobs and insults finally dying down as he grew tired. He slowly and weakly pushed himself up holding onto the edge of the bed to keep himself steady. His once energetic blue eye lights faded leaving hallow eye sockets. Tears stained his cheeks, bags had formed under his eye sockets. All he could do was stand there and listen to the way he insulted himself in his head. He seemed to grow more tried at this. His stumbled his way over to Nightmares side of the bed. Upon reaching Nightmares side of the bed he smiled softly at the thought of just sleeping...and never waking up. He collapsed on the bed not even bothering with getting dressed or getting under the covers. He closed his eyes slowly his smile fading into a small frown before he quickly drifted off into a dreamless sleep. His body lay limply on the bed as took small shallow breaths his throat scratchy from all his crying.

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It was now dusk and everything was quite Nightmare walked to the front door a smile on his face. He sighed and pulled at the tie around his neck. "Finally home at last." he breathed before opening the door to his small but cozy home. He stood in the doorway of the house and was greeted not by a hug or a kiss on the cheek from Killer welcoming him home, but rather the cold dark living room. He paused and looked around he slowly stepped into the dark house and called out for Killer softly "Killer? Honey are you home?" He asked the seemingly dead house. He closed to the door softly and made his way down the hall slowly looking around wearily. He noted how all the other doors were closed besides the bedroom door and the bathroom door. He walked to his and Killer's room. He smiled at the sight of his boyfriend asleep on the bed. He walked over to him and sat down on the bed he placed a hand on Killer's shoulder and leaned over to his head to whisper in his ear. "Killer, sweetie, it's time to wake up." Nightmare whispered shaking Killer softly. Killer whined before opening his eyes, his blue eye lights still gone and his face stuck to the pillowcase his tears acting like glue and keeping his face glued to the pillow. "Killer?" Nightmare asked softly upon further examination he could see the sticky tear track on Killer's cheeks. He also took note to how Killer was in nothing but a towel and seemed rather cold. Nightmare sighed softly and stood up taking off his jacket. He then lifted Killer up bridal style and takes over his previous spot on the bed. He sits Killer up in his lap taking off the towel and putting his jacket on him. Killer didn't even fight back but just did as Nightmare silently instructed, he whimpered slightly when Nightmare took his towel off. Killer had to stop himself from just mindlessly snuggling into the warmth Nightmares jacket provided him. Nightmare pulled Killer to his chest making the smaller yip in slight surprise. "Killer, what's wrong? This... isn't like you." Killer's look of surprise quickly fell into that of a frown. His gaze being directed to the bed as he sighed softly. Killer clutched onto Nightmares shirt the soft fabric wrinkling and balling up in his small hands. He closed his eyes before speaking "I'm ugly.....I'm fat.....How.. can you even love a cow like me?.....I'm useless..I'm nothing to be proud of... If anything I should just be locked away to protect anyone else from.. having to see me." Nightmares eyes widened as he looked at Killer in utter shock. He couldn't believe what he was hearing. "Killer..wh-what?" Nightmare spoke softly he placed his hands on Killer's cheeks and moved his head to face him. "Where in the world did you get that idea!?" He raised his voice worry lacing his tone. Killer tensed but kept his eyes screwed shut tears rolling down his cheeks. He didn't respond, small hiccups escaping his lips. "Killer...please don't tell me...you actually believe that..." he mumbled wiping away his lover's tears with his thumbs. His gaze with filled with nothing but love and worry for the smaller that was sat in his lap. Killer let out a shaky sigh and slowly opened his eyes just a sliver. "O-of course I do." Killer whispered, "It's all true...haven't you seen me?...I'm-..my body...it's...just so...so..." Killer trailed off closing his eye again. Nightmare tensed up his could almost feel the pain radiating off of Killer. Nightmare brought Killer closer to him and placed his forehead on Killers. The small skeleton opening his eyes to look at his goopy lover. "You know none of that's true right? That your not ugly or a cow?" He asked softly Killer looked away for a moment. "No..." he mumbled back in response making Nightmare sigh. "Killer." Nightmare spoke with authority but it had a gentleness to it. Killer didn't respond but instead just looked at him and waited from him to talk. Nightmare sucked in a breath closing his eyes before oping them again "Your perfect just the way you are. You're beautiful and amazing. I should be more than proud of you. Your more than what I could ever ask for. I love you." Nightmare whispered a smile on his face as he looked at Killer with so much love it was almost too much for the smaller.

There's no way I could say this is about anyone else

Killer shook a small smile starting to plaster itself to his face. He leaned into Nightmares hand his hands slowly rising to meet Nightmares at his cheeks. Killer placed his hand's on top of his lovers holding his hands tightly as tears fell from his eyes. "I love you too Nighty," he whispered Nightmare smiled and brought Killer closer to him closing the gap between them. Killer quickly melted into the kiss his body slumping as he relaxed. Nightmare slowly pulled away and rolled over taking Killer with him. He spooned the smaller holding him close. "Much better. I was starting to miss my love bug." He joked lovingly making Killer laugh softly he looked back at Nightmare with his lively blue eye lights making him blush. "Ya...I missed you too." He whispered softly before nuzzling into the warmth of his boyfriend.

Because there's only one person that can make me feel this way

Nightmare chuckled and rested his head on top of Killers he hummed before looking down at Killer. He crack a smile as he pulled that smaller closer making him sqeak. Nightmare chuckled at this before speaking.

"So."



"Hmm?"















"What's for dinner?"

". . .

















Heheh anything you'd like sweetie? "  



My sweet love. The one who I give my life.

"Hmm. Chicken."

The one that never fails to make me smile

"Why did I have the feeling you were going to say that."

My one and only protector.

"Hey! I just really like chicken ok!"

My sweet

"Heheh Okay, okay! Let's just lay here a while longer."

My Sunshine

"Of course."

My one and only. 

Nightmare.

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