Captured

She-22🎈

Its been days since I've heard from him ...I've become more and more depressed and sick .

Why was I like this?

Its just like there is an evil entity inside me that wants him , and its scaring me

The things he does flatter me even though he is a sicko and I'm a sicko too knowing that I miss him ...

There's no doubt the readers on Author-nim's book is going to judge me ... And its making me scared .

Why can't anyone understand my situation ?

If I explained it , no one will get it until they experience it yourself ?

I've been fidgety , very fidgety and my eyes keep jumping to different sounds and objects in the room .

I went out for sometime with the guys and I came back just a few moments ago , I laughed a lot and had fun but there is this irritating black hole in my heart.

Its irritable , annoying and I want to rip it out.

I swore I saw him a few times .

But maybe it was just my mind playing dirty tricks with me , I heard my phone buzzing but I ignored it

I closed the curtains and the room became dark , I wasn't enjoying being outside so much like I use to now.

I'm so frustrated that its because of him..

I grind my teeth in anger and pull at my hair , I need to calm down

The irritating nip at my head was like an annoying bee buzzing there forever , you just want to hurt or throw something.

My phoned was buzzing again , i grabbed it an answered

"WHAT!" i seethed

"Now now my Vixen , that's no way to talk to me hmmm?" His deep voice filled my ear and just like that , my body jolted with electricity

I wanted to cry , scream or jump or maybe all at once ?

I didn't answer him for a while .

"What have you been doing babygirl?" His pet name made my cheeks fill with colour and my heart raced , a  blazing fire was set inside me

It felt like a cure , "I'll be there soon doll" he said lastly before the the dead line went off ...

It took me a while to realise what he said and I threw my phone on the bed , opening up the curtains and running to my mirror to check my appearance

Why was I even doing this ? But it was like my body was working on its own.

I eyed my lipstick and dabbed my lips with it , i noticed the bags under my eyes due to the sleepless nights

I grabbed some make up and tried to cover up my droopy eyes 

"Well aren't you getting all pretty" his voice rung out throughout my room.

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