Screaming Out
Even as you try to whisper words of comfort,
My voice is caught on words I'll never say.
Stuck in my head, there they replay,
Over and over
I pray and silently scream
Hoping for salvation
Hoping you'll never have to know the kind of darkness I tread.
Your veins may fill with dread
But my strength has fled
Leaving me wishing I was dead
Screaming out for some peace
I'm only eighteen
But life has drained from me
Every hope
Every dream
Leaving me empty, and lost
Like I'm Seventy-three
Your veins may fill with dread
But my strength has fled
Leaving me wishing I was dead
Screaming out for a future
I try to hold on to your memories
To the good things you see in me
But my mind and broken soul
Remind me I'm nothing more than useless
Your veins may fill with dread
But my strength has fled
Leaving me wishing I was dead
Screaming out for another life
That bright future we dreamed of
Fades from my sight
As if it was nothing more than a phantom
I was blind to dream in fairytales
My reality is a jealous hell
Your veins may fill with dread
But my strength has fled
Leaving me wishing I was dead
Screaming out for what I'm losing
It strips me of all good intentions
Loyal beliefs
Noble endeavors
The ever present Know-It-All conscience
Reprimands me for falling apart
And for taking you with me
Your veins may fill with dread
But my strength has fled
Leaving me wishing I was dead
Screaming out for you
I'm the little toy soldier
Expected to be more than I was trained for
My loss of composure is a felony of the highest degree
I carry the weight of a thousand lives on my shoulders
But if I dare show I am human
They spit in my face and tell me to learn my place
Your veins may fill with dread
But my strength has fled
Leaving me wishing I was dead
Screaming out at the injustice of it all
I'm broken beyond repair
For that I am sorry
I would never wish to place this curse upon you
For it is my burden to bear
I'm drained of life and you need better.
Don't cry when I'm gone
I am not worth your tears.
Don't scream out for me
For all screams land on deaf ears.
