Cømpletely Different (Book-2)

Confusing Dream

*Dylan's POV*

"Johnnie please let me" I say

"no" he says

Me and Johnnie are playing minecraft and he will no let me let me live in his minecraft house "why not?" I ask

"because.. Just go build your own" he says

"I already did but I like yours better. Just let me live with you" I groan

"no, no, no" he says

"please, please, please" I beg

I walk into Johnnie's minecraft house and place my minecraft bed right his the hallway of his house "no not right there" he mines it

"that's is mine" I hit him in the game "just let me live with you" I command

"fine just follow me" he walks down the hall to one of the doors. I follow him and I see him place the bed next to his

"thanks" I say and kiss his cheek in real life

"whatever. Since I let you live in my minecraft house you have to go find me 5 diamonds" he says

"no problem I have 3 stacks of 64" I say

"nuh uh" he says

"yea uh" I give him his 5 he ask for

"why aren't you wearing any armour then?" he ask

"I'm making them right now" I say

Me and Johnnie play some more minecraft for a little bit more "okay let's do something else now" Johnnie says

"okey, Like what?" I ask

"umm I don't know" he says

-2 months later-

Okay so one good thing and one horrible things happen in these last two months.

So the good thing first, the kid at Liam schools is leaving him alone. And the horrible thing is that me and Johnnie have been trying for a baby and it is not working. Every time we try we wait a week or few then we go check in with the doctor but I'm having no luck

Johnnie sits down on the bed next to me and pulls me in his arms. He knows I'm thinking about what is happening "stop. I'm grumpy" I admit and I pull myself out of his arms "It's just not working" I say

Johnnie sighs. A tear slips from my eye "I actually really wanted one with you" I add

"maybe we try once more" he suggest

"should we?" I ask

"I would say yes but you need to agree so now just let me cuddle you" he says

I giggle as he opens his arms again. I huddle into his chest as he hugs me tight "maybe we could just go on a walk since Liam is at school?" Johnnie ask

"yes in a few minutes, I'm to comfy in your arms" I say

As minutes pass, maybe hours we sit there and we never went on our walk we were planning. Liam was still in school for maybe about two more hours. For some reason I feel super bad and I know it's not just because of the not baby working thing, it's because I just feel sad and depressed from something else. Something isn't working and I want it to start working again cause of the feeling in my chest hurts and it's slowly flowing though my blood stream and making me weak, like I can't move my arms, legs or even think straight.

It's been a long time since I had these kind of thoughts and every time these thoughts come to mind, there always deep, personal, scary and I'm gonna do something that isn't to good for me.