Me: we haven't told you this because of the way you might react to it
Alex: what the hell did he do
Me: well do you remember Lacy?
Alex: yeah my best friend and Luke's sister that passed away last year
Me: well you think she died by killing herself but that's not true
Alex: how did she die then
Me: well Matt was dating her around this time and they were going to a party. Well Matt decided to drink a little before the party and they got in a car accident and she didn't make it.
Alex: it's all his fault
She started crying. I hated that she had to find out. Luke kept giving me evil stares but so did Spencer.
Me: I know it's hard
Alex: how can you forgive him for that
Me: I'm sorry
Alex: just leave okay just get out and leave if you forgive someone that easily then no wonder why you get hurt all the time.
A tear came down my cheek. I walked out of the house. I started to walk away from there house when I heard someone else click the door shut.
Luke: Hannah!
Me: oh so now you want to talk
Luke: I have my reasons
Me: are you going to tell me I shouldn't of forgave him too
Luke: I mean you shouldn't of but that's not what I was going to tell you
Me: okay what is it
Luke put the strands of my hair that were in my face behind my ear.
Luke: I was tryin to protect you
Me: protect me from what
Luke: from the rumors from Rikki from everybody
Me: I don't know if you noticed but I can handle myself
Luke: no you can't Hannah. I know you are tryin so hard but I can tell it's not working.
Me: I'm sorry I have a fucking screwed up family I'm sorry I make the wrong decisions but I learn from them
Luke: do you learn from them because lately it doesn't seem like it.
Me: I can't help it.
Luke: I can help you I can protect you.
Me: I want you too but I can't
Luke: I care a lot about you but your to blunt to see it
Me: well if all you wanted to do was scream that I can't handle myself then bye
I ran home. When I slammed the door open I noticed my mom was home. She was actually sober. I slammed the front door shut and ran to my room. I slammed my door shut. I cried into my pillow I ripped papers up and threw things. Then my mom came in. I just clasped to the floor.
Mom: honey what's wrong
Me: I can't do this anymore.
Mom: I know it's hard I'm starting to get sober now I know how hard it is for you
Me: I ruined things with everyone.
Mom: that's not true
Me: I told Alex what happened to lacy and that I forgave Matt for it
Mom: come here
She sat against my book shelf while she hugged me while I cried.
I cried myself to sleep while I was in her arms. So once I was asleep she layed me on my bed and covered me with a blanket and left. She fell asleep shortly after I did. I woke up at 3 in the morning and couldn't fall back to sleep. I went down stairs to grab me a pop tart when my door bell rang.
I opened it and there was Andrew standing there.
Me: Andrew?
I was shocked to see him frightened to see him. I had a bad feeling on why he was here in the first place.
Andrew: I want to get back together
And there was the bad news.
