My broken heart...

You Completely Destroy Me

You completely destroy me, you destroyed me like you never knew you could. I'm not over you and I never will be, the thing about love is....that simple things like her lips and her eyes break my heart. They're not mine and I don't know who's they'll be. Her hair is therapy to my cold brittle heart, I used to find safety in her smile. I used to feel warmth in the look on her face. I've been left an empty shell to whiter and fade away, I used to call you mine but now you just don't know. What am I left to do but stand here in the cold, all I've got left are some photos of you and your voice stuck in my head. Saying how you'd be there always and forever ,until the very end you were everything to me, and you always will be. Deep in my heart that aches for the sound of your voice, but no longer will I have that choice. I'm sorry for everything that I've done for the person I've become that you learned to love. But then turned your back like a setting sun if I hurt you I pray that you forgive me. I mean all the words that I say please believe me, and see me as the person you always knew I was. I've never been perfect not in a single way, and the day you saved me is when I fell from grace I only needed you and pushed everyone else away so now I'm left alone to live life all on my own and I hate the fact that someone else is holding you close and, how you broke my heart when I needed you the most. I've always been too scared to be properly diagnosed because you were my pill but now your nothing but a ghost. And I still have your pictures and that letter you wrote where you said that you loved me and you'd never let me go and you saved me from myself and  that's something I hope you know. But you cut me down so quick and I've never been so low and my stomach aches with every breath of air I breathe because you were the one hat gave me everything I need but now the pain won't subside I just can't believe you chose to leave you were the reason for living how could you do such a heinous thing I was like a boat that got carried out to sea and I trusted in your wave's that you wouldn't  harm me you protected me from the storm and gave me a chance at life and I love the way you cared and asked if I was alright but....something died, something changed and I sunk to the ocean floor you no longer wanted to hold me up and I drowned from within my core and every essence of my being is to afraid to fight because I'm terrified to keep on living without you I guess this whole time they were right love can never last this way when the flame burns to bright

But I hope your happy....I hope you're doing fine I love you still to day just like you were still mine I still love the way you laughed and the things you said to me you'll never leave my heart nor my memory....I just wish I could understand why you chose to leave I ant do this on m own I need you here with me but you've turned into a ghost and you're no where to be seen and I cant hear you're voice I won't see your message on the screen....we won't have a family we won't have a house we won't raise our kids you won't be my spouse we won't grow old together like we always planned you disappeared forever and here alone I shall stand.